Gotagetthroughthis
21-12-14, 22:53
I have no idea what to do with my life, I have no goals, no drive, no ideas, no passions (apart from gambling), even if I do come up with some sort of idea as to what to do with my life I feel like my anxiety is stopping me and going to destroy it all for me anyway.
Years and years go by and im in the same position. Half of its my fault as I am so unmotivated and SO lazy. I don't know why im so lazy and so selfish. I even start using my anxiety as an excuse to stop me from doing things now I guess. Even though my anxiety is real and very horrible.
My anxiety has just branched off into so many different aspects now its so complicated and nothing is simple anymore. I dont have one once or beleif or confidence anymore. Yes I have tried meds, yes I have tried therapy which I still go to. The tangled web in my mind just cannot be untangled and nothing ever changes. Just block it out and carry on? thats what I do now, but nothing changes, so what is the point in this life. Yes there others worse off, I appreciate that, still doesn't make my life worth living the way it is and the way I feel.
I dont know what to do, I dont see the point in anything, I dont even know what im posting because its not going to change anything. I want change and I want a better life but at the same time a cannot be bothered to make the effort. What is wrong with me.
I feel to give up.
Years and years go by and im in the same position. Half of its my fault as I am so unmotivated and SO lazy. I don't know why im so lazy and so selfish. I even start using my anxiety as an excuse to stop me from doing things now I guess. Even though my anxiety is real and very horrible.
My anxiety has just branched off into so many different aspects now its so complicated and nothing is simple anymore. I dont have one once or beleif or confidence anymore. Yes I have tried meds, yes I have tried therapy which I still go to. The tangled web in my mind just cannot be untangled and nothing ever changes. Just block it out and carry on? thats what I do now, but nothing changes, so what is the point in this life. Yes there others worse off, I appreciate that, still doesn't make my life worth living the way it is and the way I feel.
I dont know what to do, I dont see the point in anything, I dont even know what im posting because its not going to change anything. I want change and I want a better life but at the same time a cannot be bothered to make the effort. What is wrong with me.
I feel to give up.