Beetlejuice
29-12-14, 13:22
Hi again! I haven't been around the forums for a long time. But sadly enough I have again reached a point where I don't know what to do other than seek answers and support here.
I have been having some anxiety every now and then but I lived a normal life managing it quite well only until this summer, when I got some anxiety attacks and develop some symptoms that ever since are driving me crazy and my anxiety is progressively worsening.
The symptoms
To begin with I started having shooting pain through different parts of my body, it drove me nuts for 2 months, sharpened my anxiety. Then I visited my GP and found out that I have vitamin D deficiency which I have been treating for past 3 months and the aches have improved.
However 2 months ago along with the pain I started having muscle twitching in random parts of my body. Sometimes it's a small muscle that twitches - for example the one above my ear and sometimes it's a bigger muscle like my biceps or part of my leg or abdomen. This is still going. And guess what I am freaking out that I might be developing MS. I went to my GP again and he couldn't find anything inappropriate. But he will refer me to a neurologist soon.
And the last thing that worries me the most lately is something that happened to me twice, including last night. I guess that it could be just triggered by too much stress. Basically the thing that happened to me 1 month ago was - I came back from work, had dinner and while I was resting on the couch I got irritated stomach, then I had and anxiety attack and in the span of 15 minutes I became extremely tired, got cold arms and legs and started shivering. I went to bed with the idea that I need to rest and I couldn't fall asleep for 1 hour, I would go in and out of sleep getting sucked into what seemed as psychedelic weirdness, dreams that didn't make sense and I would also get hearing hallucinations like songs or humming voice. Then I would get insane kick of fear wake up and it all seems normal except my extreme level of anxiety, fear of dead and thoughts of committing suicide. And that would repeat 10-15 times until I actually managed to fall asleep. Then I would sleep for 12-14 hours straight and wake up like I was undergone terror last night. And 1 day later I am back to normal... The same thing happened to me again last night ... The same pattern with extreme tiredness, anxiety, fear, in and out of crazy dreams until I managed to fall asleep and slept straight for 12-14 hours.
I have to admit that I am not having the healthiest of lifestyles lately, especially now that I am in a holiday. I am having my first job as an IT Engineer for a year already and it has been really stressful period since my contract is not full time and I keep worrying about tons of things. And now in the vacation I kinda of screwed my sleeping patter and also consume quite a bit of alcohol and not so healthy food.
Basically this whole thing has brought me down so much that thoughts of death and committing suicide are intruding my head ever more often. And the moment that I stabilize and feel better something else comes and I hit the ground again...
Can please someone at least explain what the heck are these episodes with the psychedelic dreams and insane anxiety and sleeping span of 12-14 hours.. it worries me a lot, I am starting to think that I might have schizophrenia or smth like it...
I have been having some anxiety every now and then but I lived a normal life managing it quite well only until this summer, when I got some anxiety attacks and develop some symptoms that ever since are driving me crazy and my anxiety is progressively worsening.
The symptoms
To begin with I started having shooting pain through different parts of my body, it drove me nuts for 2 months, sharpened my anxiety. Then I visited my GP and found out that I have vitamin D deficiency which I have been treating for past 3 months and the aches have improved.
However 2 months ago along with the pain I started having muscle twitching in random parts of my body. Sometimes it's a small muscle that twitches - for example the one above my ear and sometimes it's a bigger muscle like my biceps or part of my leg or abdomen. This is still going. And guess what I am freaking out that I might be developing MS. I went to my GP again and he couldn't find anything inappropriate. But he will refer me to a neurologist soon.
And the last thing that worries me the most lately is something that happened to me twice, including last night. I guess that it could be just triggered by too much stress. Basically the thing that happened to me 1 month ago was - I came back from work, had dinner and while I was resting on the couch I got irritated stomach, then I had and anxiety attack and in the span of 15 minutes I became extremely tired, got cold arms and legs and started shivering. I went to bed with the idea that I need to rest and I couldn't fall asleep for 1 hour, I would go in and out of sleep getting sucked into what seemed as psychedelic weirdness, dreams that didn't make sense and I would also get hearing hallucinations like songs or humming voice. Then I would get insane kick of fear wake up and it all seems normal except my extreme level of anxiety, fear of dead and thoughts of committing suicide. And that would repeat 10-15 times until I actually managed to fall asleep. Then I would sleep for 12-14 hours straight and wake up like I was undergone terror last night. And 1 day later I am back to normal... The same thing happened to me again last night ... The same pattern with extreme tiredness, anxiety, fear, in and out of crazy dreams until I managed to fall asleep and slept straight for 12-14 hours.
I have to admit that I am not having the healthiest of lifestyles lately, especially now that I am in a holiday. I am having my first job as an IT Engineer for a year already and it has been really stressful period since my contract is not full time and I keep worrying about tons of things. And now in the vacation I kinda of screwed my sleeping patter and also consume quite a bit of alcohol and not so healthy food.
Basically this whole thing has brought me down so much that thoughts of death and committing suicide are intruding my head ever more often. And the moment that I stabilize and feel better something else comes and I hit the ground again...
Can please someone at least explain what the heck are these episodes with the psychedelic dreams and insane anxiety and sleeping span of 12-14 hours.. it worries me a lot, I am starting to think that I might have schizophrenia or smth like it...