At the start - does this sound rite?...

[Ollie28]

Ive always wanted to ask this question but because i cant feel to remember i forget almost instantly...

So here goes why it come to me in to my current messed up mind...

The night this all started for me i was perfectly fine enjoying the evening as normal with my wife & children, i stood up to go to the kitchen and as i turned around my body physically shook it felt as if i was hit by a car slowly as such and it felt like someone physically ripped my soul and "me" out of my body, i was left stood in pure confusion to where i was and what was going on i just stood still it felt so bad i started to panic! It happened twice in 5 minutes and that was it ive been left in this state since. Like I'm a lost detached empty soul of a body in physical pain through out my head & body that struggles to try to think.

Is this normal?

Ive been in such a bad way today i was close to going to A&E my whole body was in pain i could barley grind out thought and i was having electrified feelings through my head and spine. My head and body feel like there being crushed nearly all the time now and i have burning in my stomach and chest.

My clarity is terrible my brain & head feel so crushed i cant think at all or even when i try it physically hurts my head.

Does this sound anything like anyone has or is going through?

Im basically everday walking around under guidance from my wife even my kids lead me sometimes, i cant think intelligently no more or connect to anything,

I often wonder what happened to me & my body that night thats left me trapped in such a horrible physical and mentally lost painfull confused state and why wont my body return to normal or give me just one hour of feeling "normal" with normal thinking power normal clarity, normal memory, normal feelings of everything.

[courierdude]

sounds about right ollie, it can just descend upon you from nowhere.
i would call 111 though just in case and they'll go through a few checks with you.
make sure that you can left your arms above your head, ask if your chest if cold to the touch, to rule out a few obvious conditions.

it really can happen like you describe though and it sounds like youre being introduced to panics attacks in the worst way possible.

i described something similar very recently-exactly that, that part of me was being pulled from my body, i didnt suffer the pain you talk of though ive had enough of them historically to say i have every anxiety pain possible-though always having my symptoms updated : /

call 111 and go through their questions. i would try not to mention panic attacks and leave it for them to arrive at that conclusion because as soon as mention anxiety or anything it seems that they confine your symptoms to the crazy drawer.

after you have spoke to the usual admin person ask to speak to a clinician or nurse who'll talk more in depth about your health issue.

the feeling of detachment is absolutely archetypal panic attack. i often feel my hair standing on end and a cold sweat when i have been in that state...but it isnt life threatening and i think youre feeling some chemicals of your own creation rushing around your body.

try to eat and drink when you can because there might be moments when the last thing you feel like doing is eating. try to hang on to your normal routine when you are being dominated by this overwhelming sense of absolutely not knowing what is going on.

hope you feel better soon.

[Ollie28]

Hi mate, sorry i didn't explain it very well, this just happened the once to me at the very start of it all - it hit once like i described and ive been stuck in this constant painful state 24/7 12 months solid. I don't have any panic attacks mate or anything like a panic tbh more just confused and in pain and cant physically think straight. I have all the symptoms above in my first post 24/7 from the second i wake to the second i close my eyes. Even sleep is painfull with feelings of my mind staying awake why im asleep as the part of my mind i feel im operating only is me and it or i cant turn off.
So i get no rest from it.

When i have just clicked out of it its amazing!! I get all my feelings and senses back & my body seems calm and relaxed no pain nothing, i can think how or what i want i can remember people i forgot even existed people i use to talk to every single day of my life!

It dosnt last long! 5 mins then its gone until god knows when. Its messed up mate im trying to see a neurologist i cant even go out with my kids without my nerves creating me all sorts of pains & my head tenses up the pain is incredible i get confused and it feels like my body is being crushed and on fire.

My ears are doing my head in too constant full crushing clicking feeling.

[Ollie28]

Didnt really want to start a new thread but just needed some re assurance ....

I woke up today feelings so tired my mind again never switched off all night i had nightmares and silly dreams - just before i woke i had a dream i was spinning around in a lift, then i woke up and when i woke felt dizzy as if i really was had been spinning around and i was physically dizzy and felt sick.

It passed then i resumed the morning as always in confusion and on manual,

Today though i went for a game of football at 11 with family and after half an hour i was in agony! Pain in my head like ive not had for a long time, im always in pain just not this strong. We ended up playing for about 3.5 hours i did ok considering how i feel but struggled mentally to keep up i couldnt get involved in conversation or what was happening i was even calling my cousin owen "ollie" my sons name. Ok i realised but why am i doing such things!? Ive known him all my life, the pain didnt go and i couldnt think straight or hardly at all i just plodded along pretending i was ok.

Whens my brain going to open back up let me feel like i use to and take away this pain!!

Fed up of feeling like my heads being crushed and i can barley think or feel aware of everything. I want to feel and produce ideas like i use to not feel thick in pain and lack of flippin life.

Can anyone recommend anything to take the pain away and open my mind back up its driving me insane now!!! Sleep too i cant sleep cos of the way my mind feels stuck. It wont switch off if it switches off i wont be here thats how it feels..... It just feels like it wants to click open and all open up opening my awareness and feelings and my life back.

[MrAndy]

read this book it will help you make sense of what you are going through
http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/the_book.html

[Ollie28]

Im now home im still in pain & I feel physically sick too - if i try to think outwards aka about normal stuff it physically hurts so much like my brains trying to open or send blood through a different part of something - my wifes just rang to ask me if i want a new game for my ps3 (hardley play it anymore but helps takes my mind off things) when doing nothing and i was "trying" to think outwards about what games exist and the pain was imense i could feel me try trying to use a different part of my mind!! Is this anxiety or has something physically broke in my brain!!!! Making go through the crap i am! I have pain in my right eye too.

Moan moan moan thats all i seem to do now but i wouldn't need to if i was healthy and not suffering in pain daily.

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Ive read that book mate i couldnt relate to non of it, the dp part possibly but even then ive tried and continue to try to not think about me ect. I still socialise the best i can, i still go work the best i can and go out with the family ect. Why would my brain "click open" leaving me pain free symptom free open free flowing thoughts and feelings then bang it goes, is that down to blood or oxygen flow? This happens on its own ive felt the worst ive ever felt then "click" i snapped back to me then 5 mins later it was gone and i was back struggling again.
Its strange but horrible.

It happend the other night i was feeling like pure crap - pain, confussed, couldnt think, crying fed up frustrated, felt like i was being crushed in a vice, couldnt feel my awareness outwards, then click - like my body shook and i come back, it felt amazing!!! I was telling my wife what we had done that day where we had been things i dont think to think about or cant think about i felt that good i "rememberd" that i use to like astronomy so i put on some brian cox it felt great and i felt it too!!!
30 mins later i felt it coming - my body tenses up my head starts to tense up my brain feels like its being crushed slowley and my clarity, memory, awareness and feelings just go! Then im stuck like this crap 24/7 struggling to think to think to remember or act upon feelings and thoughts! Its sending me insane mate!!!!! Im gona end up losing the plot if someone dosnt help me soon. Medication aint doing jack either.