Munki
01-01-15, 19:18
Hi lovely people! Happy New Year!
So I'm off on my first snowboarding trip with my husband on Feb 10th and I'm already starting to obsess. I'm determined to find a strategy to help me through, to stop me from letting it take over life in the meantime.
What hasn't helped is that my husband is amazing at it and I'm just learning. I've had 3 lessons but still feel poor. As a perfectionist I feel the need to be better and not let my husband down. We're going out with friends who are also beginners so I shouldn't be so panicky. Also, we know the people that run the hotel. I'm having panics already about what if I can't get it and it ruins my holiday? What if everyone else picks it up apart from me? What if I find it too cold? What if I have a terrible accident?
I'm already having these panics and they're taking over my every moment. I can't handle this for 6 weeks. I know I should go and take it for what it is and have fun but I'm getting worried.
Think it doesn't help that my Mom used to worry about me obsessively. She's better now but I'm scared she'll be scared and that gets me going again!!! Once we were abroad when the ash cloud hit and my friends told me she was calling them and was a basket case. I believe that was the trigger. It's really messed me up.
How do I deal with this and not be terrified? How do I just think about it a few days before and not let it take over my life?
Please help guys, I really need it right now...
So I'm off on my first snowboarding trip with my husband on Feb 10th and I'm already starting to obsess. I'm determined to find a strategy to help me through, to stop me from letting it take over life in the meantime.
What hasn't helped is that my husband is amazing at it and I'm just learning. I've had 3 lessons but still feel poor. As a perfectionist I feel the need to be better and not let my husband down. We're going out with friends who are also beginners so I shouldn't be so panicky. Also, we know the people that run the hotel. I'm having panics already about what if I can't get it and it ruins my holiday? What if everyone else picks it up apart from me? What if I find it too cold? What if I have a terrible accident?
I'm already having these panics and they're taking over my every moment. I can't handle this for 6 weeks. I know I should go and take it for what it is and have fun but I'm getting worried.
Think it doesn't help that my Mom used to worry about me obsessively. She's better now but I'm scared she'll be scared and that gets me going again!!! Once we were abroad when the ash cloud hit and my friends told me she was calling them and was a basket case. I believe that was the trigger. It's really messed me up.
How do I deal with this and not be terrified? How do I just think about it a few days before and not let it take over my life?
Please help guys, I really need it right now...