Hypomania
02-01-15, 20:53
Hey everyone, first time poster, but I've read a few threads and this seems like a pretty active community so I was hoping you guys could give me some peace of mind.
I've had GAD and HA for most of my life, with fears jumping from testicular cancer, to lymphoma, to lung cancer, and now I'm on throat cancer. I'm almost 29, and the anxiety is really driving me nuts. I'll go for years without having a relapse into HA, but when it comes back, it comes back with a vengeance. Currently I'm not in full blown panic mode, but I fear I'm getting closer. Obviously, I want to prevent that, as it can be debilitating.
Basically, about 3 years years ago I discovered a scratchy sensation in the left side of my throat, just below my Adam's Apple. I can't feel it when I eat or drink, or when my throat is hydrated, but if I move my adam's apple I'll feel the scratchy sensation. It doesn't feel like the typical "globus" or anxiety induced lump in throat sensation, but when I get that, it feels more prominent. I have no other symptoms, such as trouble swallowing, no neck mass (besides a few palpable nodes I've had forever), no fever, no coughing up blood, and no hoarseness. I've seen two doctors about it when I first discovered it and they said it was due to my post-nasal drip. I also had an ultrasound done at the time, and it came back clear. I also have chronic allergies and congestion in my sinuses. I have never smoked, nor am I a heavy drinker and I live an active lifestyle (although my diet needs work haha).
Despite this, for some reason, I am worried about throat cancer again. The feeling hasn't gotten worse, and no new symptoms have appeared, except I can sometimes taste mercury in my mouth. When I taste this I try to spit and the spit is clear, with no trace of blood.
I'm worried that maybe the sensation was a tumor or some other sort of lesion in my throat and the doctors were wrong. I know it sounds crazy for cancer to sit in your throat for 3 years and not spread or get worse... but I'm having trouble shaking the feeling that something is really wrong.
Any insight would be very welcome.
Thank you very much.
I've had GAD and HA for most of my life, with fears jumping from testicular cancer, to lymphoma, to lung cancer, and now I'm on throat cancer. I'm almost 29, and the anxiety is really driving me nuts. I'll go for years without having a relapse into HA, but when it comes back, it comes back with a vengeance. Currently I'm not in full blown panic mode, but I fear I'm getting closer. Obviously, I want to prevent that, as it can be debilitating.
Basically, about 3 years years ago I discovered a scratchy sensation in the left side of my throat, just below my Adam's Apple. I can't feel it when I eat or drink, or when my throat is hydrated, but if I move my adam's apple I'll feel the scratchy sensation. It doesn't feel like the typical "globus" or anxiety induced lump in throat sensation, but when I get that, it feels more prominent. I have no other symptoms, such as trouble swallowing, no neck mass (besides a few palpable nodes I've had forever), no fever, no coughing up blood, and no hoarseness. I've seen two doctors about it when I first discovered it and they said it was due to my post-nasal drip. I also had an ultrasound done at the time, and it came back clear. I also have chronic allergies and congestion in my sinuses. I have never smoked, nor am I a heavy drinker and I live an active lifestyle (although my diet needs work haha).
Despite this, for some reason, I am worried about throat cancer again. The feeling hasn't gotten worse, and no new symptoms have appeared, except I can sometimes taste mercury in my mouth. When I taste this I try to spit and the spit is clear, with no trace of blood.
I'm worried that maybe the sensation was a tumor or some other sort of lesion in my throat and the doctors were wrong. I know it sounds crazy for cancer to sit in your throat for 3 years and not spread or get worse... but I'm having trouble shaking the feeling that something is really wrong.
Any insight would be very welcome.
Thank you very much.