snowflake293
06-01-15, 13:24
I haven’t really weighed myself in a few weeks, I suffered from bulimia for 15 years and still recovering really so try not to weigh myself that often but today at work 3 people told me I lost weight and now I am panicking it is because I have an illness!
I have probably been eating a little less and I don’t drink much now as it makes me sleepy on Sertraline and when I take Diazepam I don’t drink at all (knocks me out!!!) and I lost my appetite for the first 2 weeks on Sertraline and was suffering severe anxiety to the point of dry heaving over the toilet bowl in the mornings.
I know the LOGICAL and RATIONAL explanation is that I have lost weight due to medication, stress and taking in less calories but I am PANICKING now that I have cancer and I am just dreading someone else telling me I have lost weight! As someone recovering from an eating disorder I never thought I would see the day when I didn’t want someone to tell me I had lost weight. I just feel awful, I had been doing so well and now this!
To make matters worse I have an appointment this afternoon about an MRI scan I had on my ankle (it was clicking really loudly) before Christmas and I am worried it will be bad news (the C word again even though I know it is unlikely). Was having nightmares about it! I really feel I have a full blown phobia of the c word now. Any time someone talks about it I start to panic! I just hate everything about it and I am so terrified it will happen to me.
Sorry to go on but feeling really low this afternoon, could really do with some advice on how to handle this cause I am so worried.
Snowflake x
I have probably been eating a little less and I don’t drink much now as it makes me sleepy on Sertraline and when I take Diazepam I don’t drink at all (knocks me out!!!) and I lost my appetite for the first 2 weeks on Sertraline and was suffering severe anxiety to the point of dry heaving over the toilet bowl in the mornings.
I know the LOGICAL and RATIONAL explanation is that I have lost weight due to medication, stress and taking in less calories but I am PANICKING now that I have cancer and I am just dreading someone else telling me I have lost weight! As someone recovering from an eating disorder I never thought I would see the day when I didn’t want someone to tell me I had lost weight. I just feel awful, I had been doing so well and now this!
To make matters worse I have an appointment this afternoon about an MRI scan I had on my ankle (it was clicking really loudly) before Christmas and I am worried it will be bad news (the C word again even though I know it is unlikely). Was having nightmares about it! I really feel I have a full blown phobia of the c word now. Any time someone talks about it I start to panic! I just hate everything about it and I am so terrified it will happen to me.
Sorry to go on but feeling really low this afternoon, could really do with some advice on how to handle this cause I am so worried.
Snowflake x