Alison_Niamh
06-01-15, 17:02
So this is my first post on here and it's probably going to be a pretty long and annoying one as I try to explain everything.
I moved away to University in September, all the way down to London, and about a month in started getting very panicky, upset and homesick, all pretty normal for me, and at this time I was completely unaware I'd been struggling with an anxiety disorder in bouts pretty much since I was a child. Then about two months in I (stupidly) followed the crowd and took a pill whilst out, I have no idea what it was even now.
I was extremely ill for two weeks after this, struggling to go two hours without a panic attack, heart racing etc. I didn't tell my parents, but went to A&E 12 days later and had an ECG and BP both of which came back fine.
The doctor told me to go home and relax and that I was fine, I booked a regular doctors appointment for confirmation, got home, started to relax and things got better, my doctors appointment was booked for two weeks after this date, which i subsequently cancelled the night before due to feeling much better, I'd say 99%.
Since I did this, my panic attacks, sleeplessness etc. came back and much worse, I started to get one achy sore eye, and saw a blue circle when my eyes were closed and found my self googling a multitude of drug related symptoms.
I thought for an extremely long time I had HPPD and thought of nothing else, once I had come home from university, the panic attacks decreased, yet I thought of nothing else throughout the day, I wasn't sleeping and what was worse, is that now I was no longer worrying about panic attacks and being alone the eye symptoms got worse because I fixated on them. It became flashes when I closed my eyes, afterimages (negative) and migraines when watching tv, seeing shadows out of the corner of my eyes. I broke down and eventually had to tell my parents, and when I did, the flashes disappeared for that one night. I saw another doctor who prescribed Diazepam which I haven't been taking but feel maybe I should and an optician who have all said I am medically completely fine, and it has all been brought on from 12 weeks of anxiety and stress, it is not drug related.
However, they're slowly creeping back up on me the eye symptoms, they're diminished but still there. I was just wondering if it is because I am still worried and stressed about it? And how long anyone thinks this will go on for? I've seen a counsellor who has gone through a timeline with me, and has assessed when I have been experiencing anxiety in my life, and just not realising that it was more serious, or simply because I had lived at home and had support and care. I've never had physical symptoms before other than classic panic attacks but feel the fixation on my eyes has perpetuated the issue.
Any support/advice would be much appreciated.
I moved away to University in September, all the way down to London, and about a month in started getting very panicky, upset and homesick, all pretty normal for me, and at this time I was completely unaware I'd been struggling with an anxiety disorder in bouts pretty much since I was a child. Then about two months in I (stupidly) followed the crowd and took a pill whilst out, I have no idea what it was even now.
I was extremely ill for two weeks after this, struggling to go two hours without a panic attack, heart racing etc. I didn't tell my parents, but went to A&E 12 days later and had an ECG and BP both of which came back fine.
The doctor told me to go home and relax and that I was fine, I booked a regular doctors appointment for confirmation, got home, started to relax and things got better, my doctors appointment was booked for two weeks after this date, which i subsequently cancelled the night before due to feeling much better, I'd say 99%.
Since I did this, my panic attacks, sleeplessness etc. came back and much worse, I started to get one achy sore eye, and saw a blue circle when my eyes were closed and found my self googling a multitude of drug related symptoms.
I thought for an extremely long time I had HPPD and thought of nothing else, once I had come home from university, the panic attacks decreased, yet I thought of nothing else throughout the day, I wasn't sleeping and what was worse, is that now I was no longer worrying about panic attacks and being alone the eye symptoms got worse because I fixated on them. It became flashes when I closed my eyes, afterimages (negative) and migraines when watching tv, seeing shadows out of the corner of my eyes. I broke down and eventually had to tell my parents, and when I did, the flashes disappeared for that one night. I saw another doctor who prescribed Diazepam which I haven't been taking but feel maybe I should and an optician who have all said I am medically completely fine, and it has all been brought on from 12 weeks of anxiety and stress, it is not drug related.
However, they're slowly creeping back up on me the eye symptoms, they're diminished but still there. I was just wondering if it is because I am still worried and stressed about it? And how long anyone thinks this will go on for? I've seen a counsellor who has gone through a timeline with me, and has assessed when I have been experiencing anxiety in my life, and just not realising that it was more serious, or simply because I had lived at home and had support and care. I've never had physical symptoms before other than classic panic attacks but feel the fixation on my eyes has perpetuated the issue.
Any support/advice would be much appreciated.