russ
10-01-07, 09:36
I have a long story to tell, but I'm fairly sure I've developed great anxiety over my health (and perhaps you will see why when I explain).
Both my Dad and Nan passed away from Bowel Cancer in the last few months. I guess the first sign I was anxious about my own health was when I found a lump in my groin just after Dad was diagnosed, thankfully if was just a collection of fluid, however, looking back it was the start of my problems.
I put them down to seeing far too much and remember most of it. I spent a long time caring for both my Dad and Nan and have experienced the worst of things. I would always try to reassure my Dad he would be fine, but always the worst case appeared to come true. Then there was the constant visits to hospital and seeing people in awful situations. Then we sat with dad for 30 hours as he died and when Nan was dying we had 3 false callouts where she was critically ill but didn't pass away, for weeks and even months I slept with my clothes and everything I needed close to hand on an almost permanent state of alert, especially during the evenings. The list just goes on and on and sticks in my mind, even down to having to carry my father down the garden to the car when he was so ill and weak.
Since their passing I thought I was fine, but then I had chest pains myself, at first I feared a heart attack. I've had all the tests at A&E, but have been told I am fine and need no further follow-up appointment. They have actually diagnosed costochondritis (where you hurt the ribs), this can take months or years to get better, but the last Doc I saw said it sounded more like anxiety. What I don't understand is when I feel the pains I don't feel anxious!
The symptoms I get are:
1 - A lump in my throat, especially around evenings.
2 - Pains in my chest most days on and off, very painful.
3 - A real dred of evenings and the dark.
I didn't think anxiety could cause such physical pain, if indeed anxiety is the true cause.
I'm just constantly scared the Doctors have missed something and I'm going to have a heart attack, I'm constantly worried and have yet to return to the doctor despite the A&E saying so, what is beyond death?
I just don't know what to do, if the pains would stop I feel I could move forward.
Both my Dad and Nan passed away from Bowel Cancer in the last few months. I guess the first sign I was anxious about my own health was when I found a lump in my groin just after Dad was diagnosed, thankfully if was just a collection of fluid, however, looking back it was the start of my problems.
I put them down to seeing far too much and remember most of it. I spent a long time caring for both my Dad and Nan and have experienced the worst of things. I would always try to reassure my Dad he would be fine, but always the worst case appeared to come true. Then there was the constant visits to hospital and seeing people in awful situations. Then we sat with dad for 30 hours as he died and when Nan was dying we had 3 false callouts where she was critically ill but didn't pass away, for weeks and even months I slept with my clothes and everything I needed close to hand on an almost permanent state of alert, especially during the evenings. The list just goes on and on and sticks in my mind, even down to having to carry my father down the garden to the car when he was so ill and weak.
Since their passing I thought I was fine, but then I had chest pains myself, at first I feared a heart attack. I've had all the tests at A&E, but have been told I am fine and need no further follow-up appointment. They have actually diagnosed costochondritis (where you hurt the ribs), this can take months or years to get better, but the last Doc I saw said it sounded more like anxiety. What I don't understand is when I feel the pains I don't feel anxious!
The symptoms I get are:
1 - A lump in my throat, especially around evenings.
2 - Pains in my chest most days on and off, very painful.
3 - A real dred of evenings and the dark.
I didn't think anxiety could cause such physical pain, if indeed anxiety is the true cause.
I'm just constantly scared the Doctors have missed something and I'm going to have a heart attack, I'm constantly worried and have yet to return to the doctor despite the A&E saying so, what is beyond death?
I just don't know what to do, if the pains would stop I feel I could move forward.