Ollie28
12-01-15, 14:30
Yesterday I stayed at home all day fed up of stuggling when out in public with pain & confusion ect so yesterday decided to stop at home all day and struggle
Anyway it come to the evening we had put the children to bed and sat down to order some tea with a few episodes of sons of anarchy - now I never feel normal 24/7 I'm struggling but do my best to just get on with it but last night I felt wrong 5 minutes in to it I started to notice my clarity and attention was getting worse than it is by the seconds the next thing I couldn't move my body my head I couldn't talk or stand up my wife started to panic i was that gone i couldn't even worry myself but I knew it was happening my head started feeling like it was being pulled and I was slurring any replys I could reply to my wife - she thought I was having a stroke I don't knoe what it was but it lasted about 3 minutes then I gradulay started to get a bit more power back only a little enough to make myself take notice in not ok before that I was mentally and emotionally powerless - I started to cry I thought I was dying. My hole body was numb like someone was sat on me or I had suddenly been deopped in to water I couldn't move, talk, think, I just knew I was "there" I eventually stood up felt weak but went outside. The horrible thing is I don't have no processing so I know it's happend to me but there's nothing in my mind telling me seek help my wife is doing it it's as if my brain is off and I'm struggling.
What the hell was it?
Another thing - I've been like I am 12 months and for 12 months I've been passed on and on the latest was DP and dissociation - I met with a bloke last week who specialises in this field and within half an hour he told me in not suffering from this illness he's writing to my dr to refere me for a full neurological tests so for the last 12 months of suffering being told by my dr its this there now saying it's not .... When will this ever stop?
I've been having some sort of "seizure" I can feel it starting despite feeling 30% myself - my body will start to feel shaky my nurves will go on over drive my body goes in to some sort of feeling of shock n it hurts il lose pretty much all my mind power I can barley talk think or feel awareness il slur words n struggle to think of anything or about anything and il get pains in my head. It lasts about 20 minutes but all awhile I'm aware it's happening and have to just pretend I'm ok if in public and wait it out its hell! This surely isn't normal.
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Kind of felt like I was fully numb and paralytic with nothing other than my awareness of its happening I just sat there fully numb and like I was being "warped" the feeling was strange and horrible to experience.
I've been having it a little last week but nothing like last night it starts off with pain In the back of my head makes me go a bit not with it, not dizzy but like kind of confused warped feeling it's strange.
Anyway it come to the evening we had put the children to bed and sat down to order some tea with a few episodes of sons of anarchy - now I never feel normal 24/7 I'm struggling but do my best to just get on with it but last night I felt wrong 5 minutes in to it I started to notice my clarity and attention was getting worse than it is by the seconds the next thing I couldn't move my body my head I couldn't talk or stand up my wife started to panic i was that gone i couldn't even worry myself but I knew it was happening my head started feeling like it was being pulled and I was slurring any replys I could reply to my wife - she thought I was having a stroke I don't knoe what it was but it lasted about 3 minutes then I gradulay started to get a bit more power back only a little enough to make myself take notice in not ok before that I was mentally and emotionally powerless - I started to cry I thought I was dying. My hole body was numb like someone was sat on me or I had suddenly been deopped in to water I couldn't move, talk, think, I just knew I was "there" I eventually stood up felt weak but went outside. The horrible thing is I don't have no processing so I know it's happend to me but there's nothing in my mind telling me seek help my wife is doing it it's as if my brain is off and I'm struggling.
What the hell was it?
Another thing - I've been like I am 12 months and for 12 months I've been passed on and on the latest was DP and dissociation - I met with a bloke last week who specialises in this field and within half an hour he told me in not suffering from this illness he's writing to my dr to refere me for a full neurological tests so for the last 12 months of suffering being told by my dr its this there now saying it's not .... When will this ever stop?
I've been having some sort of "seizure" I can feel it starting despite feeling 30% myself - my body will start to feel shaky my nurves will go on over drive my body goes in to some sort of feeling of shock n it hurts il lose pretty much all my mind power I can barley talk think or feel awareness il slur words n struggle to think of anything or about anything and il get pains in my head. It lasts about 20 minutes but all awhile I'm aware it's happening and have to just pretend I'm ok if in public and wait it out its hell! This surely isn't normal.
---------- Post added at 14:30 ---------- Previous post was at 13:57 ----------
Kind of felt like I was fully numb and paralytic with nothing other than my awareness of its happening I just sat there fully numb and like I was being "warped" the feeling was strange and horrible to experience.
I've been having it a little last week but nothing like last night it starts off with pain In the back of my head makes me go a bit not with it, not dizzy but like kind of confused warped feeling it's strange.