Dan21
10-01-07, 21:43
Hi,
For ages now my health anxiety has been at an all time low, but today I have been fighting to keep a handle on things as I'm terrified that I have something wrong with my throat (again).
My lump in the throat feeling ahs come back with a vengence, feels like my epiglottis (sp) is bigger than it should be coupled with a tight feeling in the throat. It comes and goes. But since I found out we are expecting, its comeright back and feels as bad as ever. I had thos feeling for most of last year and it went away for about three months. Now its back.
Surely if it was anything dangerous it wouldnt have gone away for three months would it?? I'm really, really scared.
I do feel stressed, the prospect of being a Dad is scary enough but it has brought up a ton of feelings in relation to my dads passing away in the summer. Plus, I have had deadlines for Uni this week (I really enjoy my work, but its still stressful) and to top it all off, my wife has had signs of spotting so we are in a bit of a state. We had to call NHS Direct last night about it. They said to see the doctors this morning, which we did and he has referred us to have an early scan which takes place tomorrow. I know we shouldnt complain as many countries dont ever have such care, but I feel like my body is slipping back to how it was during my most stressful months of last year. I'm trying so so so hard to convince myself that these symptoms I am feeling could be due to stress (lump in my throat, headache, migrane type eye pain, tiredness, grumbling digestive system and have to say I've been crying a bit too). I feel like I have enough on my plate without having to deal with this f***ing HA yet again.
Feeling really, really down, when I should be thinking of other things
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I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.
For ages now my health anxiety has been at an all time low, but today I have been fighting to keep a handle on things as I'm terrified that I have something wrong with my throat (again).
My lump in the throat feeling ahs come back with a vengence, feels like my epiglottis (sp) is bigger than it should be coupled with a tight feeling in the throat. It comes and goes. But since I found out we are expecting, its comeright back and feels as bad as ever. I had thos feeling for most of last year and it went away for about three months. Now its back.
Surely if it was anything dangerous it wouldnt have gone away for three months would it?? I'm really, really scared.
I do feel stressed, the prospect of being a Dad is scary enough but it has brought up a ton of feelings in relation to my dads passing away in the summer. Plus, I have had deadlines for Uni this week (I really enjoy my work, but its still stressful) and to top it all off, my wife has had signs of spotting so we are in a bit of a state. We had to call NHS Direct last night about it. They said to see the doctors this morning, which we did and he has referred us to have an early scan which takes place tomorrow. I know we shouldnt complain as many countries dont ever have such care, but I feel like my body is slipping back to how it was during my most stressful months of last year. I'm trying so so so hard to convince myself that these symptoms I am feeling could be due to stress (lump in my throat, headache, migrane type eye pain, tiredness, grumbling digestive system and have to say I've been crying a bit too). I feel like I have enough on my plate without having to deal with this f***ing HA yet again.
Feeling really, really down, when I should be thinking of other things
-----------------------------
I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.