A Newbie needing some advice.

[googlequeen]

Hi everyone. :)
I'm happy that I found you and I'm VERY surprised in my Google diagnosis frenzies I never thought to Google "health anxiety forum" :)
For the last 4 months of my life I have been battling with an "episode" of health anxiety. I have had health anxiety for the last 15 years and when my body is good I am good, but if anything weird happens I am googling those symptoms and finding that the symptoms I have match nearly every incurable condition known and yet unknown to man and I go into free fall.
In the first 2 months I was positive that I had motor neurone disease, demanded MRI, CT scans, blood work and an appt with the neurologist. Then for a month I was positive I had MS because they were looking for MND and not MS........ I managed to find another incurable disease this time..... scleroderma, again I have been to my doctor who says I don't have it, but I demanded to see a specialist, she says I don't have it, but because I have a Google degree I feel I know better.

What do you do to convince yourself the doctor (one doctor and a specialist) is right when you have convinced yourself you have something sinister. I'm not sure what to try anymore. I always feel as though I havnt told them everything, there must be something I forgot and that's why they havnt diagnosed it.

I would love any input.

Thanks so much xxx

[Katki]

Just posted another post on this exact type of issue, see here http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=165185

x

[googlequeen]

Thanks for your reply. X
I will try not to go the doctor so much and the psych actually told me that by the doctor seeing you every time he is facilitating your bad habit (bit harsh, but true). I do rely on him for reassurance and 3 days later I think i know better again, which gets me to go back to the doctor to seek reassurance again!
Aggghhhhhh it's like groundhog day!
Thanks again x

[panicstricken]

Heya im new here too and so glad I found the site, I wanted to let you know that I do exactly the same as you, I have truly awful physical symptoms and always manage to convince myself that I have an incurable illness. I have been over the doctors more times than I can count im sure they hav a seat reserved for me by now:blush: and like you I am calm for a moment and then think about something else i should of said and convince myself that will be the thing that will make the difference. All I can say is that through this site I am beginning to learn we are not alone and I know its hard but google is not the answer, I know im a fine one to talk as I do exactly the same but I am slowly learning that this just fuels the fire. I have started keeping a diary if my worries symptoms and pain levels and have taken up a new hobby I find the diary helps me sort out the real worries from the not so urgent ones and just by writing them down it helps clear my head. This site is amazing and the people who have responded to my posts have all been kind and offered words of encouragement and support. My urge to google is still there but I niw research panic stories and advice, you tube is fab for this as real people talk about their experiences and give you tips on what to do. Im no where near cured but thus us starting to work for me and the people here are amazing.

hope you feel loads better soon:bighug1: