Ollie28
27-01-15, 12:45
I'm getting to a stage I can no longer control my moods, especially anger - once I get in to a state of anger I struggle to switch myself off, Its scaring me to death! I don't want to feel like this but the state my body is stuck in makes me like this - when I click out I would never behave like I do or think like I do when in this state! What's happening to my body? I'm stuck in this horrible state of detachment with lack of feeling of reasoning I can no longer feel like I can feel a situation to then feel how to reason I just fly off the rail, I can get in a state of pure anger and forwards ness like I can't care and then I can get in a hypo state where I can't care but feel on top of the world and manic at the time then u can get in a state of panic & Low worry and be scared, i can be half & half or I can click out this hell and feel normal think normal and think & realise what the hell am I doing!! I know I'm doing it but I just can't stop myself! I'm worried I'm so worried. I don't feel with it either like I'm just not able to physically think at all other than forward.
I just had a massive argument with my boss over pretty much nothing I've threatend him with legal action and all sorts, I'm right in what I'm saying to him but I just can't help myself or stop myself, when I walked after I know it just happend but I can't feel it or think what was said just a massive mental block.
I don't want to be like this no more! I'm getting worse
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These can change within hours sometimes minutes I've no control over it I just have to reason with myself to calm down. I'm terrified I'm schizophrenic, but wouldn't i be in this state permanent not come out and think what's going on with me?
I feel like me but I have something wrong not just not knowing and I'm like this
I just had a massive argument with my boss over pretty much nothing I've threatend him with legal action and all sorts, I'm right in what I'm saying to him but I just can't help myself or stop myself, when I walked after I know it just happend but I can't feel it or think what was said just a massive mental block.
I don't want to be like this no more! I'm getting worse
---------- Post added at 12:45 ---------- Previous post was at 12:41 ----------
These can change within hours sometimes minutes I've no control over it I just have to reason with myself to calm down. I'm terrified I'm schizophrenic, but wouldn't i be in this state permanent not come out and think what's going on with me?
I feel like me but I have something wrong not just not knowing and I'm like this