Convinced of having Melanoma and crying all day!

[tirana]

Hi, this is my first post. I have a brown spot under my eye that wasn't there 1 year ago. I thought it was a sort of age spot, but like 3 weeks ago I started with this cancer fear. To put it worst, a very small "normal" freckle appeared from nowhere (I think, although my husband says that it was there), close to the spot.

I was reading some melanoma forums, and I'm convinced I'm going to die in 2 years. With met in my brain, liver and lungs. I just can't work, or sleep. I can't stop crying.

Thanks

[mummato2]

Go get it checked. When you get the all clear you need to then work on your anxiety :)

[Annie0904]

I have had all sorts of moles and freckles appear from nowhere. I don't know how old you are but as we get older we get even more.
There is no harm in getting them checked out by your doctor if you think they look sinister but otherwise I would just accept they are fine. I often feel new ones on my back and ask my husband to tell me if it looks like a 'normal one' and if he says yes then I accept his judgement.

[tirana]

Thanks for your replies. I'm 37 years old. I will see my GP on Monday, and I guess I'll be referred to the derm. In my country of origin, I would go and see the specialist right away, but here it doesn't work like that :weep:. I just think on my two boys and can't stop crying for leaving them.

[Annie0904]

Keep off the melonoma forums and enjoy doing fun things with your 2 boys. I am sure it is a normal mole :)

[tirana]

I really hope so, Annie. Tonight I'm going to a concert (Queen) ; but I'm not sure if I will be able to enjoy it.

[Annie0904]

Focus on the concert, try to visualise yourself there at the concert having a great time which I hope you will. Going there will help to take your mind of your worries.

[tirana]

My god... I can't concentrate on anything. Now I'm convinced I have nodular melanoma. Damn Google. Damn disease.

[popejoan]

Dear Tirana, please please stop googling, you're not a doctor so you don't have the training and education they went through. If you google you misinterpret what you read and what you see. You should see your GP and trust them if they say it's nothing.

Honey just enjoy your night and don't let your HA ruin it. Take care x

[tirana]

Update: I saw my GP today, and he was more worried about my state of mind that about the freckle. He said he didn't feel that is something more than senile lentigo. His assistant (student) also said the same. He didn't think it was necessary for me to go to the derm, and asked me to take pictures of the freckle and go there in a month, or in a week if I'm still nervous. I asked him if he was sure that we wouldn't lose precious time, but they assured me that I will be fine.
Now I don't know if I should have pushed more.
Anyway, instead of the derm, he wanted to set an appointment with an English speaking therapist (I'm in the Netherlands); he realized straight away that my main problem is the anxiety.
You think I can stop worrying?

[Vida]

Tirana. I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I too am 37 with 2 children and I have horrible fears of cancer and death. I'm not battling melanoma fears but it has been one of my many health anxiety fears. Glad you saw your GP! I know it's hard but try to take comfort in his assessment. Hugs

[tirana]

Thanks Vida for your support. Of course I have had more fears in the past: colon, brain, liver and pancreatic cancer, HIV, blood clots, meningitis, and something called Miastenia Gravis... so you can imagine! But this has been the worst so far. And after being a mother, it just got worse. I don't only have HA for myself, but for my kids as well. I just hope that they don't copy this behavior.