Severe fear

[morif]

Hi,

It had been a long while since I last posted here but actually the last couple of months felt like living in hell.

I'm still dealing with my one and only major feat which is fear of going crazy or developing a serious mental ill. What was harder this time is that I felt helpless most of the time to an extent that was preventing me from seeking assistance neither from any specialist nor by posting here.

Moreover my fears are too severe this time that I'm already finding it hard to believe that all of this is traced to anxiety as the thoughts that I have already lost my sanity or developed psychosis is too severe and overwhelming this time.

Since I managed finally to post here I'll deeply appreciate your feedback over this matter and what can I do to get my life back on track

[Kelpinkangel]

That sounds very similar to something I've become obsessed with. I had convinced myself that all of what I was going through was more sinister and that I was on my way to losin my mind and having to be sectioned. I think the fact that you can
Rationalise that this is an issue suggests that you aren't going crazy. I had to get to my lowest point before I asked for help and because of that the past 3 years have been turmoil and I finally admitted I needed assistance and have started medication today. I would suggest seeing your gp if you haven't already and get some advice on who you can speak to. I've started cbt again as had counselling in the past. I think wen you speak to someone else you will
Realise that all that you are feeling is a symptom of anxiety and it can be managed so you don't have to live like this anymore. From one sufferer to another, it can be managed.

[morif]

Thanks for your reply hope that the medication will help you overcome these fears once and for all. The thing is that I met specialists regrading this matter and was on medicine which had helped me a lot but then i was forced to abrupt the medicine as I couldn't afford to buy it.

This time I feel that I've fallen badly nI a trap where I feel hopeless and helpess and can't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

Constantly having this headache and questioning every word I say and every thing I do. Don't know what's gonna happen next but I'm feeling really frustrated and desperate and feeling like I had convinced myself already that I lost my sanity

[MyNameIsTerry]

Here are some recent threads where the same fear is involved. Maybe these and what we have all been saying to the OP's will help you?

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=164756
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=165052
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=165008
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=164831
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=164903
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=165534

Honestly, I've had GAD and later OCD and thought I wasn't going crazy. The OCD especially did this too me as its so irrational and in the multiple forms I experienced, it was taking over my day big time.