Aubreyrose
02-02-15, 15:48
Sorry in advance I think this might be long and moany!
I went to my doctor about 2 weeks ago and explained that for the past 8 years I have struggled with anxiety and depression to the point where for months at time I have been unable to even leave the house not actually because if anxiety (I have never been AFRAID to go out) but because of depression that goes with it. It has dictated my whole life and while on the outside I seem pretty 'normal' I am married with children and at the moment I work in a family business inside everyday is incredibly hard and I pretty much just exist to get through it.
He offered me medication and counselling but I am terrified of the medication :blush: so I asked to try the counselling first.In the appointment I did a questionnaire for depression which he said showed moderately severe depression and one for anxiety which he said wasn't actually as bad but still showed a relatively significant problem. He was pretty keen sounding on the medication and told me to go back and just ask if I feel I need extra help.
I had an assessment appointment today and the woman who did it was pretty short, it was the same questionnaires again which I answered in the same way I think although she didn't say anything about it she then asked about do I avoid social situations (I don't) and how much has it impacted my life as in does it stop me doing things which I said it doesnt stop me going to work in the last two weeks (she was only asking about the last two weeks) I did try to say that for example last year I was off work for 6 months because I couldnt actually face going out like that but she just focused on the fact that I HAD managed to walk my children literally across the road to school as though that made it all ok:shrug:.
The fact I literally have to write a list the day before and work down it just to get dressed and go to work - even though I feel like crying and often actually do didn't seem to matter at all. The fact that this has been pretty much the pattern of my life for 8 years didn't seem to concern her at all - just the fact I had dragged myself to work for the past 2 weeks!
She then said that they would decide what sort of help I need and get back to me it could be just self help things or it might be going to see someone like her for a few weeks :scared15:
She also said if I dont hear anything in a few months give them a ring to remind them :ohmy:
At the end it was pretty much ok that it BYE!
I am feeling a little upset because I am not really sure how much I am going to cope with the next few months or more of this and tbh after that I am not sure how much confidence I have that they can help anyway.
So If you had say moderate severe depression and anxiety and you had an assessment like this what happened next? Is it worth my while waiting around or should I just forget it and pretend the whole gp and assessment never happened.
My gp was lovely btw so no complaints there :)
thanks
I went to my doctor about 2 weeks ago and explained that for the past 8 years I have struggled with anxiety and depression to the point where for months at time I have been unable to even leave the house not actually because if anxiety (I have never been AFRAID to go out) but because of depression that goes with it. It has dictated my whole life and while on the outside I seem pretty 'normal' I am married with children and at the moment I work in a family business inside everyday is incredibly hard and I pretty much just exist to get through it.
He offered me medication and counselling but I am terrified of the medication :blush: so I asked to try the counselling first.In the appointment I did a questionnaire for depression which he said showed moderately severe depression and one for anxiety which he said wasn't actually as bad but still showed a relatively significant problem. He was pretty keen sounding on the medication and told me to go back and just ask if I feel I need extra help.
I had an assessment appointment today and the woman who did it was pretty short, it was the same questionnaires again which I answered in the same way I think although she didn't say anything about it she then asked about do I avoid social situations (I don't) and how much has it impacted my life as in does it stop me doing things which I said it doesnt stop me going to work in the last two weeks (she was only asking about the last two weeks) I did try to say that for example last year I was off work for 6 months because I couldnt actually face going out like that but she just focused on the fact that I HAD managed to walk my children literally across the road to school as though that made it all ok:shrug:.
The fact I literally have to write a list the day before and work down it just to get dressed and go to work - even though I feel like crying and often actually do didn't seem to matter at all. The fact that this has been pretty much the pattern of my life for 8 years didn't seem to concern her at all - just the fact I had dragged myself to work for the past 2 weeks!
She then said that they would decide what sort of help I need and get back to me it could be just self help things or it might be going to see someone like her for a few weeks :scared15:
She also said if I dont hear anything in a few months give them a ring to remind them :ohmy:
At the end it was pretty much ok that it BYE!
I am feeling a little upset because I am not really sure how much I am going to cope with the next few months or more of this and tbh after that I am not sure how much confidence I have that they can help anyway.
So If you had say moderate severe depression and anxiety and you had an assessment like this what happened next? Is it worth my while waiting around or should I just forget it and pretend the whole gp and assessment never happened.
My gp was lovely btw so no complaints there :)
thanks