popejoan
02-02-15, 17:22
Hello everyone,
Some of you know how I suffer from health anxiety badly. It started 5 months ago and since then I avoided alcohol most of the time. I did drink on occasion but it was always one or two glasses of wine and I always made sure not to get drunk.
I was feeling better for a week. Last week I felt almost normal. I could see things rationally. My ALS fear got better and I could concentrate on my studies and my life.
On Saturday, I went to the Gym for the first time and although I got muscle aches afterwards, I was feeling well. I was almost feeling positive. It was a big step as I don't know how to relax and feel positive.
I stayed in with my boyfriend and we started drinking. I got carried away and ended up soo drunk. I even smoked a cigarette and I promised myself 5 months ago I would never ever smoke again. As I have OCD I feel like something bad's gonna happen to me because I broke my promise.
I woke up with the worst hangover ever yesterday. I felt soo weak and my health anxiety got out of control today. I convinced myself again that I have ALS and I realized I can't open the bathroom door with my left index finger. I'm in panic right now, health anxiety came back with vengeance. I can barely think clearly now. I've never felt this bad. My whole body is weak but mostly my arms. They are shaking. I feel like crying. I have butterflies in my stomach and trouble breathing.
If you're reading this please please avoid drinking. It will make you feel worse and you will have a horrible relapse. Alcohol must be avoided at all times.
Some of you know how I suffer from health anxiety badly. It started 5 months ago and since then I avoided alcohol most of the time. I did drink on occasion but it was always one or two glasses of wine and I always made sure not to get drunk.
I was feeling better for a week. Last week I felt almost normal. I could see things rationally. My ALS fear got better and I could concentrate on my studies and my life.
On Saturday, I went to the Gym for the first time and although I got muscle aches afterwards, I was feeling well. I was almost feeling positive. It was a big step as I don't know how to relax and feel positive.
I stayed in with my boyfriend and we started drinking. I got carried away and ended up soo drunk. I even smoked a cigarette and I promised myself 5 months ago I would never ever smoke again. As I have OCD I feel like something bad's gonna happen to me because I broke my promise.
I woke up with the worst hangover ever yesterday. I felt soo weak and my health anxiety got out of control today. I convinced myself again that I have ALS and I realized I can't open the bathroom door with my left index finger. I'm in panic right now, health anxiety came back with vengeance. I can barely think clearly now. I've never felt this bad. My whole body is weak but mostly my arms. They are shaking. I feel like crying. I have butterflies in my stomach and trouble breathing.
If you're reading this please please avoid drinking. It will make you feel worse and you will have a horrible relapse. Alcohol must be avoided at all times.