JoshD
05-02-15, 06:23
Ok, idk how long this will be but I'll try to make it short.
[Backstory]
In November last year, I had a seizure while I was tripping on shrooms. Before then, I had no anxiety or it was very mild. But after that happened, I have become completely worried about my health and anything I feel "shouldn't be there". That experience scared the living crap out of me. I even gave up smoking weed, because it just gave me panic attacks. I am very scared of having another seizure, but I've had doctors tell me that I will probably be fine as long as I stay away from that kind of stuff, which I have no problem with.
[Now for my symptoms]
At first I had severe light sensitivity, I couldn't even look at a TV or anything. And I just wanted to die honestly, I felt like my mind was going crazy and I just didn't want to think about everything anymore. I have gotten better now, but I am still very anxious and hypersensitive of my vision and it scares me a lot. I'm on Buspar and Lexapro, and I think it does help some. But now my symptoms are trouble catching my breath, feels like I'm suffocating and that's followed by chest tightness and that just increases my anxiety. As far as my vision, it scares me the most. I feel like I'm seeing floaters constantly and sometimes flashes of light and I can't focus on anything for to long. It all gets way worse at night, whenever I try to fall asleep at night I usually get flashbacks to when I had that seizure and I start panicking. I also get headaches, but it doesn't hurt really bad. It just feels like a tension on my brain and that worries me a little bit too. Sometimes whenever I look at the ceiling at night, I can see it breathing slightly, which is what I remember from tripping and that usually makes me panic quiet a bit.
Have any of you experienced things like this? I know you probably have, but it would be great to get some feedback from you lovely people. :)
[Backstory]
In November last year, I had a seizure while I was tripping on shrooms. Before then, I had no anxiety or it was very mild. But after that happened, I have become completely worried about my health and anything I feel "shouldn't be there". That experience scared the living crap out of me. I even gave up smoking weed, because it just gave me panic attacks. I am very scared of having another seizure, but I've had doctors tell me that I will probably be fine as long as I stay away from that kind of stuff, which I have no problem with.
[Now for my symptoms]
At first I had severe light sensitivity, I couldn't even look at a TV or anything. And I just wanted to die honestly, I felt like my mind was going crazy and I just didn't want to think about everything anymore. I have gotten better now, but I am still very anxious and hypersensitive of my vision and it scares me a lot. I'm on Buspar and Lexapro, and I think it does help some. But now my symptoms are trouble catching my breath, feels like I'm suffocating and that's followed by chest tightness and that just increases my anxiety. As far as my vision, it scares me the most. I feel like I'm seeing floaters constantly and sometimes flashes of light and I can't focus on anything for to long. It all gets way worse at night, whenever I try to fall asleep at night I usually get flashbacks to when I had that seizure and I start panicking. I also get headaches, but it doesn't hurt really bad. It just feels like a tension on my brain and that worries me a little bit too. Sometimes whenever I look at the ceiling at night, I can see it breathing slightly, which is what I remember from tripping and that usually makes me panic quiet a bit.
Have any of you experienced things like this? I know you probably have, but it would be great to get some feedback from you lovely people. :)