Ollie28
08-02-15, 18:23
Thanks all that have helped me over the last 13 months you all really are a bunch of amazing people and I appriciate every little word in advice typed to help me.
There's a few things I've not come out and said basically because I've not thought too do it - that is Im striggling to deal with my past and what happened to make me the way I am, I'm not sure what's going on but i think I'm psychologically messed up.
To this day despite loving my wife and wanting to be together I can't cope with the thought of my wife having that relationship with someone else like she did - at the time (4 months solid) I assumed the worst I was paranoid about the "unknown" I was made homless and kicked out from my own family by my wife
I was put through mental hell,
Anyways so much went on and i didn't stop to get her back in the end we got back together only for me to end up like this now I'm a mess, I'm going through hell but at the same time I love my wife but I'm telling myself we can't be together il struggle alone - I've no one or nothing but to me it feels like my mind & body are stuck in that 4 months, I've become detached but my body is still going through the same emotions and thigs like I was when it was all going in only back then my mind was not on me but my situation, it isn't until we got back together my body started to calm then smack, I mean I don't know I'm just speculating.
Is it possibly to psychologically be with someone when they have hurt you and put you through so much yet I feel like i can't live without her - my mind and body feel trapped.
One minute I'm "leaving I can't be with someone that would do this to me I don't care how I'll I am il struggle" then I'm "I can't live without my wife and kids I love them I just want my life back with them" then "I can't be with her she done this to me" then "I can't leave I can't cope knowing she's with someone else when I know deep down I still love her"
Is this my illness thinking for me??
Everyday it feels like "there's somrthing there" like my mind and body is somewhere else still - when we was going through all that crap I was having emotional & mood change within minutes, happy, sad, angry, excited, sad, panic, liteally changing by the minute - everyday all day for 4 months.
My body is still doing the same yet only now I feel not in control and I'm detached, I feel I'm mentally struggling not to mention the physical symptoms.
I need help, until I've been ruled out of everything physical our local mental health people won't help me.
Can it be as simple as just walking away from the person that ripped me apart or is this my illness tricking me because I feel I cant think as rational as I use to?
I'm not sure no more xxx
There's a few things I've not come out and said basically because I've not thought too do it - that is Im striggling to deal with my past and what happened to make me the way I am, I'm not sure what's going on but i think I'm psychologically messed up.
To this day despite loving my wife and wanting to be together I can't cope with the thought of my wife having that relationship with someone else like she did - at the time (4 months solid) I assumed the worst I was paranoid about the "unknown" I was made homless and kicked out from my own family by my wife
I was put through mental hell,
Anyways so much went on and i didn't stop to get her back in the end we got back together only for me to end up like this now I'm a mess, I'm going through hell but at the same time I love my wife but I'm telling myself we can't be together il struggle alone - I've no one or nothing but to me it feels like my mind & body are stuck in that 4 months, I've become detached but my body is still going through the same emotions and thigs like I was when it was all going in only back then my mind was not on me but my situation, it isn't until we got back together my body started to calm then smack, I mean I don't know I'm just speculating.
Is it possibly to psychologically be with someone when they have hurt you and put you through so much yet I feel like i can't live without her - my mind and body feel trapped.
One minute I'm "leaving I can't be with someone that would do this to me I don't care how I'll I am il struggle" then I'm "I can't live without my wife and kids I love them I just want my life back with them" then "I can't be with her she done this to me" then "I can't leave I can't cope knowing she's with someone else when I know deep down I still love her"
Is this my illness thinking for me??
Everyday it feels like "there's somrthing there" like my mind and body is somewhere else still - when we was going through all that crap I was having emotional & mood change within minutes, happy, sad, angry, excited, sad, panic, liteally changing by the minute - everyday all day for 4 months.
My body is still doing the same yet only now I feel not in control and I'm detached, I feel I'm mentally struggling not to mention the physical symptoms.
I need help, until I've been ruled out of everything physical our local mental health people won't help me.
Can it be as simple as just walking away from the person that ripped me apart or is this my illness tricking me because I feel I cant think as rational as I use to?
I'm not sure no more xxx