Frog song
09-02-15, 09:11
hi. I'm pretty much brand new here, but have been reading threads for a while. I have health anxiety, and I'm pretty sure general anxiety too.
I had cancer a few years ago and was damaged during the operation, so now I have a broken endocrine system. It sucks. I get so many odd symptoms to do with that, but I'm finding it hard to differentiate between anxiety symptoms and 'other' symptoms. I'm terrified of more cancer and other illnesses taking me away from my children. My youngest was only 7 months old when I was diagnosed.
I ended up in coronary care 18 months ago after my calcium levels crashed very low, to 'emergency situation' low. The guy in the bed next to me was having a heart attack while I lay there and listened to all the action that goes along with that. It's seared into my memory when I heard him ask the doc "Am I alright???!" Just as the ECG results were printing. The doc was trying to stay calm but he was moving very quickly and all hell broke loose with alarms etc.
Since then I've been terrified of my heart. I get ventricular ectopic beats which have been picked up on a 24 hour monitor. I've had a heart ultrasound and it all looked fine, about 12 months ago. I do get chest pain and dizziness and basically all the other heart attack symptoms, yet I've survived thus far. Every time I've been to ER the ECG s are normal.
My heart races for no reason, it pounds very strongly, it flip flops and thuds and keeps me awake at night. I have developed an invisible tremor which feels so awful and it feels like it's become quite strong.
I'm not really sure what I need to hear, but I guess I'm just sharing and seeing if anyone has the same. I've had so many tests ( brain MRI, gastro, heart, etc etc) and see my endocrinologist every 3 months.
I just can't seem to shake the fear. If the heart ultrasound was clear a year ago, it'd still be good wouldn't it? Is it only blockages that cause heart attacks? I worry about strokes too, and my blood pressure is high every time I get tested. I'm going on a 24 hour cuff tomorrow to see if it's actually high, or just white coat high. I'm anxious about that too though! Really don't want it to be high.
I'm 32, healthy weight, female, non smoker, non drinker. Non exerciser too really. Other than a mild walk with the dog.
Thanks for reading. My anxiety is becoming paralysing and life sapping. I feel like I'm short changing my children and my husband yet I can't seem to escape it.
I had cancer a few years ago and was damaged during the operation, so now I have a broken endocrine system. It sucks. I get so many odd symptoms to do with that, but I'm finding it hard to differentiate between anxiety symptoms and 'other' symptoms. I'm terrified of more cancer and other illnesses taking me away from my children. My youngest was only 7 months old when I was diagnosed.
I ended up in coronary care 18 months ago after my calcium levels crashed very low, to 'emergency situation' low. The guy in the bed next to me was having a heart attack while I lay there and listened to all the action that goes along with that. It's seared into my memory when I heard him ask the doc "Am I alright???!" Just as the ECG results were printing. The doc was trying to stay calm but he was moving very quickly and all hell broke loose with alarms etc.
Since then I've been terrified of my heart. I get ventricular ectopic beats which have been picked up on a 24 hour monitor. I've had a heart ultrasound and it all looked fine, about 12 months ago. I do get chest pain and dizziness and basically all the other heart attack symptoms, yet I've survived thus far. Every time I've been to ER the ECG s are normal.
My heart races for no reason, it pounds very strongly, it flip flops and thuds and keeps me awake at night. I have developed an invisible tremor which feels so awful and it feels like it's become quite strong.
I'm not really sure what I need to hear, but I guess I'm just sharing and seeing if anyone has the same. I've had so many tests ( brain MRI, gastro, heart, etc etc) and see my endocrinologist every 3 months.
I just can't seem to shake the fear. If the heart ultrasound was clear a year ago, it'd still be good wouldn't it? Is it only blockages that cause heart attacks? I worry about strokes too, and my blood pressure is high every time I get tested. I'm going on a 24 hour cuff tomorrow to see if it's actually high, or just white coat high. I'm anxious about that too though! Really don't want it to be high.
I'm 32, healthy weight, female, non smoker, non drinker. Non exerciser too really. Other than a mild walk with the dog.
Thanks for reading. My anxiety is becoming paralysing and life sapping. I feel like I'm short changing my children and my husband yet I can't seem to escape it.