elik
13-02-15, 22:30
It's been five weeks since I broke up with my now ex. I truly feel horrific. I don't understand anything I have had hardly any closure and I am 100% head over heels in love with him. I feel completely rejected and completely worthless. I have my ups and downs and I know everyone advice is that it will get better org time and focus on yourself. I don't care for this anymore, nothing is anything without him,. He is all I think about and I am truly powerless. Everyday is the same - hell. It hasn't got easier, it's got worse as I feel him becoming further and further away. I have no motivation to get up and do anything no matter how positive it may be as he is not the end result. I know you are who defines your own happiness which is true, but I have never been as happy as I was with him. How am I meant to pretend it's fine and just move on. I respect his decision and want him to be happy but I feel completely dead inside and I cant simply just let go of something that every instinct within me is telling me not to, it doesn't feel right.