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15-01-07, 07:19
Just to let you know.. Almost every symptom that I read here I experience.From the falling sensation to brain tumor worries..Its all anxiety.I am like several of you .. It getting to the point I don't know whats real and whats imagined.I have been told over and over by nurse friends and been told by a specialist and gp that everything I experience is just anxiey.How could that be?It makes me feel crazy.I woke from a fitful dream today and so nervous I took a med and went back to sleep .What I wouldn't give to just let go and never worry about this again.I can't .Somedays are better other days no.The dreams carry over into the daytime and its slowly becoming to where I cannot distinguish between the two.I feel like im living in a nightmare,and can't wake up .I wonder sometimes if I can even deal with reality anymore.I just want to close my eyes again and hope for another dream but a nice one
I take my meds and keep busy .I have been laying around for months and when I do get up and try to keep busy I loose my breath and get weak..Everyday grows harder to maintain a positive attitude hoping that one day Ill just wake up and its over.. Not going to happen..The pounding I hear in my head everyday is so scary but been told just ignore it..How do you ignore something that sounds as if its a sledge hammer beating you in the head everyday ..?
Will I ever get better only God knows now.I am slipping worse into oblivion and nothing seems to make me feel better.Nothing anyone says or trys to explain.My wife got angry with me the other day and said I thought you were better..you aren't ever going to get better..I really never thought that but im afraid now that she is right.My mind slips in and out of reality or does anxiety make you feel that way ?Or could I be losing it for sure?Is it possible that anxiety depression can make you just go crazy? The thought scares me but somehow im starting to find comfort in it..maybe if i were totally crazy i wouldn't realize it nor that i had anxiety..Its got to where my wife thinks I should be over it.. and she has lost patients with me.One minute she says I don't talk to her and other times I do and she gets angry .No matter what I do ,say or try its never right.I feel so alone and a failure
I used to have a little hope but now the symptoms are more and getting worse.Bizarre and in this place we live at night even though its 15 below zero you are clammy and sweating.You say this is anxiety but the locals here say this is normal.I have been worried about my heart stopping lately but started thinking today if it does then my worries are over. .i just wanted to be the first or maybe a long line of people to admit that they have everything that everyone experiences here.The most intriguing thing about a lot of the symptoms is im finding they are weather related and also geographically related and I have been made to feel im suffering with anxiety when in fact most of what I have found is normal here.The people here just accept it and don't speak of it but when you ask they say oh yeah i feel like that all the time..
I hope someone can find comfort in the fact that someone else (me) is a little worse off than you .i used to ..I used to have hope too..People say if you can't get used to where you live move.I cannot.We spent our savings here never to recoup what we put in this place.I need so much to have someone that understands.I can't talk to my wife anymore and never see anyone else.I am getting to where it frightens me at the thought of going to town..I want to say is there anything else that can happen to me but I know there is..I am not feeling sorry for myself but im am losing hope very quickly ..and the bad thing is i have been told im the only one that can help myself..Im not sure I can anymore..
PRAYER FOR FREEDOM FROM SUFFERING
May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of
I take my meds and keep busy .I have been laying around for months and when I do get up and try to keep busy I loose my breath and get weak..Everyday grows harder to maintain a positive attitude hoping that one day Ill just wake up and its over.. Not going to happen..The pounding I hear in my head everyday is so scary but been told just ignore it..How do you ignore something that sounds as if its a sledge hammer beating you in the head everyday ..?
Will I ever get better only God knows now.I am slipping worse into oblivion and nothing seems to make me feel better.Nothing anyone says or trys to explain.My wife got angry with me the other day and said I thought you were better..you aren't ever going to get better..I really never thought that but im afraid now that she is right.My mind slips in and out of reality or does anxiety make you feel that way ?Or could I be losing it for sure?Is it possible that anxiety depression can make you just go crazy? The thought scares me but somehow im starting to find comfort in it..maybe if i were totally crazy i wouldn't realize it nor that i had anxiety..Its got to where my wife thinks I should be over it.. and she has lost patients with me.One minute she says I don't talk to her and other times I do and she gets angry .No matter what I do ,say or try its never right.I feel so alone and a failure
I used to have a little hope but now the symptoms are more and getting worse.Bizarre and in this place we live at night even though its 15 below zero you are clammy and sweating.You say this is anxiety but the locals here say this is normal.I have been worried about my heart stopping lately but started thinking today if it does then my worries are over. .i just wanted to be the first or maybe a long line of people to admit that they have everything that everyone experiences here.The most intriguing thing about a lot of the symptoms is im finding they are weather related and also geographically related and I have been made to feel im suffering with anxiety when in fact most of what I have found is normal here.The people here just accept it and don't speak of it but when you ask they say oh yeah i feel like that all the time..
I hope someone can find comfort in the fact that someone else (me) is a little worse off than you .i used to ..I used to have hope too..People say if you can't get used to where you live move.I cannot.We spent our savings here never to recoup what we put in this place.I need so much to have someone that understands.I can't talk to my wife anymore and never see anyone else.I am getting to where it frightens me at the thought of going to town..I want to say is there anything else that can happen to me but I know there is..I am not feeling sorry for myself but im am losing hope very quickly ..and the bad thing is i have been told im the only one that can help myself..Im not sure I can anymore..
PRAYER FOR FREEDOM FROM SUFFERING
May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of