popejoan
20-02-15, 15:18
I've overcome my cancer fears. I should be happy about this but I'm not because I have ALS fears now and it is worse than cancer fears. When my HA started I never thought I would be scared of a neurological disease. It was all about cancer for me, as it started with an abnormal smear result and finding out my mum had cancer.
I had my own ways to control the situation, as I think this is my biggest issue, not being able to control what's going on in my body. So I quit smoking, reduced my alcohol intake, started taking supplements, superfood powders, reduced my salt and sugar intake so in a way I was controlling the situation.
Now I have no control over my ALS fears whatsoever. It can happen to anyone, anytime. Nobody is safe. There is nothing you can do, no supplements to take, no food to eat to prevent this. There is no hope as it's fatal, no treatment.
When I was scared of cancer I had panic attacks, extreme anxiety. Now I have depression. I'm not happy, I want to sleep all the time, I've lost interest in food. I don't go out with friends anymore, I don't plan my future, nothing excites me anymore. I don't even want to have an EMG because I know I won't feel better afterwards because it doesn't mean you won't get it shortly after tests. It can start anytime.
I don't mean to scare anybody. It's just since my HA started I was never this hopeless and depressed. I just feel sad. I am so sad.
I had my own ways to control the situation, as I think this is my biggest issue, not being able to control what's going on in my body. So I quit smoking, reduced my alcohol intake, started taking supplements, superfood powders, reduced my salt and sugar intake so in a way I was controlling the situation.
Now I have no control over my ALS fears whatsoever. It can happen to anyone, anytime. Nobody is safe. There is nothing you can do, no supplements to take, no food to eat to prevent this. There is no hope as it's fatal, no treatment.
When I was scared of cancer I had panic attacks, extreme anxiety. Now I have depression. I'm not happy, I want to sleep all the time, I've lost interest in food. I don't go out with friends anymore, I don't plan my future, nothing excites me anymore. I don't even want to have an EMG because I know I won't feel better afterwards because it doesn't mean you won't get it shortly after tests. It can start anytime.
I don't mean to scare anybody. It's just since my HA started I was never this hopeless and depressed. I just feel sad. I am so sad.