Helencollins
23-02-15, 01:38
This happened to me unplanned on Saturday morning. I was tired and travelling on trains (sometimes a trigger for me) I got on my last train (a 20 minute journey after the 2hr one I had just done) and felt the panic start. I ALWAYS run and remove myself as my coping tactic. So I got off the train before it started. Normally that would mean leaving the station and getting a taxi or bus, something less chlaustrophobic. But I felt like this was ridiculous this time, I had just sat on a train for 2 hours and I was okay, I was tired and and I didn't want to walk out of the big station and put up with the extra expense/time or money. I was angry at my panic. So I got
On the next train. Same thing happened as soon as I stepped on and I got off, back into the platform. I told myself one more try and I'd give up. I got
On and tried to distract myself but it wasn't working. I made my way to the door and pressed the open button furiously but it was too late, it wouldn't open. I have never been more terrified in my whole entire life. The panic attack started to engulf me and I was sure I would either pass out or pull the emergency cord (I once got off a plane after security and boarding before the plane doors closed so it wasn't a big stretch to think that's how badly I would freak out) for the first time ever I had no escape and It was horrific. I tried breathing technique for the first time ever and it worked. I'm
Not saying It was pleasant but after about 3 minutes my heart rate and hyperventilating slowed and I stayed the 20 minute journey. I didn't get off at the next stop which I could have after about 4 minutes.
I have felt emotional and drained all weekend .
Has anyone else tried exposure without distractions or escape routes planned and do you think it works? I feel it may but by god it was tough. Any thoughts?
On the next train. Same thing happened as soon as I stepped on and I got off, back into the platform. I told myself one more try and I'd give up. I got
On and tried to distract myself but it wasn't working. I made my way to the door and pressed the open button furiously but it was too late, it wouldn't open. I have never been more terrified in my whole entire life. The panic attack started to engulf me and I was sure I would either pass out or pull the emergency cord (I once got off a plane after security and boarding before the plane doors closed so it wasn't a big stretch to think that's how badly I would freak out) for the first time ever I had no escape and It was horrific. I tried breathing technique for the first time ever and it worked. I'm
Not saying It was pleasant but after about 3 minutes my heart rate and hyperventilating slowed and I stayed the 20 minute journey. I didn't get off at the next stop which I could have after about 4 minutes.
I have felt emotional and drained all weekend .
Has anyone else tried exposure without distractions or escape routes planned and do you think it works? I feel it may but by god it was tough. Any thoughts?