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24-02-15, 20:21
Before I start with my symtoms and my questions my grandad who was like a dad to me died yesterday I stayed with him for over two hours after he passed and I don't regret it I wish I could of stayed longer although I think maybe it's not the best as now my health anxiety well I hope it's health anxiety is on one .
My symtoms started before my grandad died yesterday I had sever out if breathless from walking just around the corner I then had stabbing pains in my stomach then I managed to calm.down and take my kids to a play centre I was finally ok feeling normal just very hungry I sat down to eat and got the phone call after I had finished eating and I was stressing because I couldn't get a taxi fast enough to him anyways I got there and I reacted not like I thought not just a cry my legs collapsed and I was near enough screaming the home down anyways I guess this is also my anxiety I then uncontrollable couldn't stop shaking and my sister said she got the shaking too I stayed there on my own when everybody left I couldn't leave him then I went home and all night I couldn't swollow properly at all I kept getting random pains like brain.freeze in parts of my head and eye and then I fell asleep after hours on end of it I woke this morning feeling ok this afternoon I started having a sort of tickle/horrible feeling while I breathed in my throat I can't explain it which is now in my throat chest and left arm it's so weird to explain iv been going to toilet a lot more today too I feel like I have the flu or something but without the typical symtoms it's so strange and I'm convinced I'm next to die and that I have what my grandad had ( non hodgkins lymphoma) or a brain anyrsm or something I then Google my symtoms and put greiving to see if this is normal or if I have a infection ect and it comes up with broken heart syndrome is real I'm. Now petrified I have this ! I feel selfish I need to be greiving properly yet I'm sat scared about myself .
Also I'm crying one minute thinking of him the next it's like I have no feelings I'm emotionless I know this is long and you probably won't read it all but I really feel I need to understand if this is normal or am I dying too ?
My symtoms started before my grandad died yesterday I had sever out if breathless from walking just around the corner I then had stabbing pains in my stomach then I managed to calm.down and take my kids to a play centre I was finally ok feeling normal just very hungry I sat down to eat and got the phone call after I had finished eating and I was stressing because I couldn't get a taxi fast enough to him anyways I got there and I reacted not like I thought not just a cry my legs collapsed and I was near enough screaming the home down anyways I guess this is also my anxiety I then uncontrollable couldn't stop shaking and my sister said she got the shaking too I stayed there on my own when everybody left I couldn't leave him then I went home and all night I couldn't swollow properly at all I kept getting random pains like brain.freeze in parts of my head and eye and then I fell asleep after hours on end of it I woke this morning feeling ok this afternoon I started having a sort of tickle/horrible feeling while I breathed in my throat I can't explain it which is now in my throat chest and left arm it's so weird to explain iv been going to toilet a lot more today too I feel like I have the flu or something but without the typical symtoms it's so strange and I'm convinced I'm next to die and that I have what my grandad had ( non hodgkins lymphoma) or a brain anyrsm or something I then Google my symtoms and put greiving to see if this is normal or if I have a infection ect and it comes up with broken heart syndrome is real I'm. Now petrified I have this ! I feel selfish I need to be greiving properly yet I'm sat scared about myself .
Also I'm crying one minute thinking of him the next it's like I have no feelings I'm emotionless I know this is long and you probably won't read it all but I really feel I need to understand if this is normal or am I dying too ?