xilvey
27-02-15, 01:50
I'm having a really hard time at the moment. I'm feeling really uneasy and close to panicking right now and I'm alone. I have learned though, writing helps.
Anyway starting October my anxiety took a turn for the worse, I had panic attacks almost every couple hours, I couldn't leave my house and I couldn't even shower or go to the toilet on my own because I was so terrified something would go wrong. Not long after my mum gave my boyfriend a key to my house and because of anxiety he's never left, he's officially moved in with me and my family love him and he has helped me a hell of a lot. He works nights and even if he hasn't had any sleep he will stay up with me for hours or maybe skip sleeping for a day just to make sure I'm okay and trust me.. He is a god send.
Eventually I started to recover, I am now on citalopram and although my depression has got considerably worse my anxiety has been improving, I've even left the house a few times and managed to travel 45 minutes from home to go to a ciurtcase as I was a witness! I was so proud of myself haha.
Recently the past couple weeks though my anxiety has been getting worse, I barely leave my house, my friends have stopped bothering contacting me whereas a couple months a go everyone used to come round everyday to see me but now I feel so alone. I just feel horrible. I was doing so well and without reason my anxiety is getting worse and its just so soul shattering when I think I'm getting better and then suddenly I get worse and all my hopes get crushed. Its making me so depressed I just want to live a normal life but this thing in my head won't let me.
I just want some support, its getting me so down :'(
---------- Post added at 01:50 ---------- Previous post was at 01:22 ----------
Bumping this would really like some support :( sorry to sound desperate
Anyway starting October my anxiety took a turn for the worse, I had panic attacks almost every couple hours, I couldn't leave my house and I couldn't even shower or go to the toilet on my own because I was so terrified something would go wrong. Not long after my mum gave my boyfriend a key to my house and because of anxiety he's never left, he's officially moved in with me and my family love him and he has helped me a hell of a lot. He works nights and even if he hasn't had any sleep he will stay up with me for hours or maybe skip sleeping for a day just to make sure I'm okay and trust me.. He is a god send.
Eventually I started to recover, I am now on citalopram and although my depression has got considerably worse my anxiety has been improving, I've even left the house a few times and managed to travel 45 minutes from home to go to a ciurtcase as I was a witness! I was so proud of myself haha.
Recently the past couple weeks though my anxiety has been getting worse, I barely leave my house, my friends have stopped bothering contacting me whereas a couple months a go everyone used to come round everyday to see me but now I feel so alone. I just feel horrible. I was doing so well and without reason my anxiety is getting worse and its just so soul shattering when I think I'm getting better and then suddenly I get worse and all my hopes get crushed. Its making me so depressed I just want to live a normal life but this thing in my head won't let me.
I just want some support, its getting me so down :'(
---------- Post added at 01:50 ---------- Previous post was at 01:22 ----------
Bumping this would really like some support :( sorry to sound desperate