KuwariKudi
04-03-15, 14:29
Hello all. I’m new here and I was hoping you could help (apologies for the long message).
I am signed up to another board so I apologize if you’ve read this before. But long story short, for the past couple of months I have been fixated on my health. I’m a naturally anxious person, but this was a whole new level of anxiety for me. I would get short of breath, start trembling, and feel numbness on my face and weird sensations on my scalp. I wouldn't sleep at nights because I was so scared I was going to die in my sleep.
I’m happy to say, that it’s gotten better as of now. But there are still things I can’t shake. I keep checking random grooves in my skull and moles on my skin. Right now, I’m going through the following:
Visual snow in the dark
Shaky vision- for example, there’s this whitewood door with wood grain pattern against a white wall in my house. From a considerable distance, when I’m moving, it looks like it’s shaking. I aslo sometimes think things in my peripheral vision are shaking but when I look, it’s not.
Tinnitus- I’ve always had it, but it feels more prominent now
Also, a weird heartbeat sound in my ear that sometimes comes when I’m close to loud fans.
I keep trying to tell myself it’s all anxiety. Because guess what? This all started when I started worrying about my health. I even went to an ophthalmologist about my eyes; he said it’s most likely anxiety because everything about my eyes were fine.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. How do I not notice these things anymore? How can I get my old self back? It’s just frustrating to feel so unmotivated to do anything worthwhile in my life because I keep thinking it’s not worth it if I get sick in the end.
I am signed up to another board so I apologize if you’ve read this before. But long story short, for the past couple of months I have been fixated on my health. I’m a naturally anxious person, but this was a whole new level of anxiety for me. I would get short of breath, start trembling, and feel numbness on my face and weird sensations on my scalp. I wouldn't sleep at nights because I was so scared I was going to die in my sleep.
I’m happy to say, that it’s gotten better as of now. But there are still things I can’t shake. I keep checking random grooves in my skull and moles on my skin. Right now, I’m going through the following:
Visual snow in the dark
Shaky vision- for example, there’s this whitewood door with wood grain pattern against a white wall in my house. From a considerable distance, when I’m moving, it looks like it’s shaking. I aslo sometimes think things in my peripheral vision are shaking but when I look, it’s not.
Tinnitus- I’ve always had it, but it feels more prominent now
Also, a weird heartbeat sound in my ear that sometimes comes when I’m close to loud fans.
I keep trying to tell myself it’s all anxiety. Because guess what? This all started when I started worrying about my health. I even went to an ophthalmologist about my eyes; he said it’s most likely anxiety because everything about my eyes were fine.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. How do I not notice these things anymore? How can I get my old self back? It’s just frustrating to feel so unmotivated to do anything worthwhile in my life because I keep thinking it’s not worth it if I get sick in the end.