Boydo
07-03-15, 08:37
Am 24 years old not really got anything going for me!
all i do is add stress to people lifes !
doctors sick of me ringing
mainly am sick of these body sensations
i was in car crash at 18 which were i was only one to get out alive lost some good mates there ive had countless therapy, meds etc nothing has or will fix it when was smoking cannabis i was better then i am now at least i could work and lead a kind of normal life,
the symptons of anxiety showed it face when i stopped every morning i wake up strange and not feeling like am in my body, i think got brain tumor constantly !!!
i see no end to this tunnekl it feel like my childhood was horrible got bullied, had special needs, parents constantly fighted,
when was a teen still bullied
by adulthood i was making friends and leading a normal life and ~BOOM was taken away along with 2 of my closes mates!
scine then nothing improved rumors went around because old bullys thought be funny.
3 months ago i very nearly threw myself under a bus !
if things don't improve i might need to revisit that idea
am at mental health specialist see physc, cbt and physiologist
meds
mirtazapine 15mg - diazepam when needs upto 40mg - codiene for the tension headaches - propanadol 40mg when needed for geart palps
/\ cant stop them as i get terrifying brain zaps aswell thats if i miss a dose next night i get horrid brain zaps
all i do is add stress to people lifes !
doctors sick of me ringing
mainly am sick of these body sensations
i was in car crash at 18 which were i was only one to get out alive lost some good mates there ive had countless therapy, meds etc nothing has or will fix it when was smoking cannabis i was better then i am now at least i could work and lead a kind of normal life,
the symptons of anxiety showed it face when i stopped every morning i wake up strange and not feeling like am in my body, i think got brain tumor constantly !!!
i see no end to this tunnekl it feel like my childhood was horrible got bullied, had special needs, parents constantly fighted,
when was a teen still bullied
by adulthood i was making friends and leading a normal life and ~BOOM was taken away along with 2 of my closes mates!
scine then nothing improved rumors went around because old bullys thought be funny.
3 months ago i very nearly threw myself under a bus !
if things don't improve i might need to revisit that idea
am at mental health specialist see physc, cbt and physiologist
meds
mirtazapine 15mg - diazepam when needs upto 40mg - codiene for the tension headaches - propanadol 40mg when needed for geart palps
/\ cant stop them as i get terrifying brain zaps aswell thats if i miss a dose next night i get horrid brain zaps