GingerFish
11-03-15, 09:52
My panic attacks seem to be getting worse again. I used to just have generic, every day panic attacks but now I seem to get what I call 'terror attacks' which are the ones where I actually fully believe I am dying and scream it or tell someone to call me a doctor. I used to just get attacks like this in the house but yesterday, I had one outside in public. I was mortified. I am worried I am going to become housebound and agoraphobic again like I did when I first got panic attacks 2/3 yrs ago.
I am currently learning to drive and do my driving lessons every week and I do get mini panic attacks while driving but I can hide and control them but now that I have had a 'terror attack' outside, its knocked my confidence with my driving lessons.
I am considering stopping my lessons for a while and using the money I would spend there on private counselling instead. The NHS waiting lists are too long and I don't fancy trying out medication. I wouldn't mind CBT. I am confused, scared and depressed over what to do. It feels like with anxiety recovery, if you take one step forward, you take 10 back.
I've only had about 4 of these bad panic attacks since new years eve but they take me a while to get over. I'm the sort of person that dwells on how bad they felt and nit pick to see if I can find a reason to why that attack happened even though I know a lot of the time its just out the blue. I'm also quite stressed at the mo. In the last 2 weeks my dog died, my car broke down and my stepdad took a mini stroke so I feel like my head is close to bursting from stress.
I am currently learning to drive and do my driving lessons every week and I do get mini panic attacks while driving but I can hide and control them but now that I have had a 'terror attack' outside, its knocked my confidence with my driving lessons.
I am considering stopping my lessons for a while and using the money I would spend there on private counselling instead. The NHS waiting lists are too long and I don't fancy trying out medication. I wouldn't mind CBT. I am confused, scared and depressed over what to do. It feels like with anxiety recovery, if you take one step forward, you take 10 back.
I've only had about 4 of these bad panic attacks since new years eve but they take me a while to get over. I'm the sort of person that dwells on how bad they felt and nit pick to see if I can find a reason to why that attack happened even though I know a lot of the time its just out the blue. I'm also quite stressed at the mo. In the last 2 weeks my dog died, my car broke down and my stepdad took a mini stroke so I feel like my head is close to bursting from stress.