rotary_x7
18-01-07, 03:07
Hey all.. I'm new to the forum just thought I'd introduce myself and give a background. I'm a 17 y/o guy diagnosed with GAD (general anxiety disorder) and depression. In the past i have been diagnosed with separation anxiety. I have pretty much battled anxiety my entire life, I have been on medication for separation anxiety in the past. I was on Celexa for about a year, and decided i was "cured" and stopped pretty much cold turkey with no side effects. I have been medication free and relatively anxiety free for about 2 years.
Until recently.. on December 22nd my aunt passed away suddenly. At first i was fine.. i mean i was upset but I handled it fairly well, we weren't extremely close you could say.. instead of dealing with how i felt about it though i guess i sub-consciously decided i would focus on making sure everyone around me was okay especially my mother (her sister was the one who passed). So through the whole process (funeral etc..) i was okay.
But then on January 2nd, i was hit with a full blown panic attack, one like I've never experienced before in my life.. i ended up having to get rushed to the hospital at 4am because i pretty much thought i was gonna die. I guess all the emotions that i bottled up while making sure my mom was okay just exploded.
Now unfortunately the repercussions of that panic attack have been that my anxiety has returned in the form of just GAD and now i am fully depressed. I have had no motivation to do anything, I've had brief thoughts of suicide (which scares the crap out of me), constant thoughts of death/fear of dying and no enjoyment in pretty much anything.
I am an avid musician i play guitar/drums/bass and i sing, and at times even these activities don't give me enjoyment. I went to my family doctor and she said it would be a good idea to start my Celexa again.. 10mg once a day. I started it last week. AND I FELT HORRIBLE!!! i felt like i was losing my mind, i couldn't sleep, i was waking up 4-5 times a night. no appetite, when i was awake i was experiencing horrible depersonalization. I felt terrible.. fully detached from life. After 4 days i said screw it and stopped taking it. But the depression continued.
I returned to my family doctor now in a desperate state. She immediately told me that i needed to be seen by a psychiatrist/psychologist because she was un-sure as to what the next step should be. Long story short.. I have been told to try the Celexa again this time starting at 5mg and then after a follow up appointment increase to 10mg.
The funny thing is.. I'm feeling relatively back to normal now.. even thought i haven't started the medication again yet, (knock on wood). Anyways thats my story so far.. I'll probably be posting around.
thanks.
pat.
Until recently.. on December 22nd my aunt passed away suddenly. At first i was fine.. i mean i was upset but I handled it fairly well, we weren't extremely close you could say.. instead of dealing with how i felt about it though i guess i sub-consciously decided i would focus on making sure everyone around me was okay especially my mother (her sister was the one who passed). So through the whole process (funeral etc..) i was okay.
But then on January 2nd, i was hit with a full blown panic attack, one like I've never experienced before in my life.. i ended up having to get rushed to the hospital at 4am because i pretty much thought i was gonna die. I guess all the emotions that i bottled up while making sure my mom was okay just exploded.
Now unfortunately the repercussions of that panic attack have been that my anxiety has returned in the form of just GAD and now i am fully depressed. I have had no motivation to do anything, I've had brief thoughts of suicide (which scares the crap out of me), constant thoughts of death/fear of dying and no enjoyment in pretty much anything.
I am an avid musician i play guitar/drums/bass and i sing, and at times even these activities don't give me enjoyment. I went to my family doctor and she said it would be a good idea to start my Celexa again.. 10mg once a day. I started it last week. AND I FELT HORRIBLE!!! i felt like i was losing my mind, i couldn't sleep, i was waking up 4-5 times a night. no appetite, when i was awake i was experiencing horrible depersonalization. I felt terrible.. fully detached from life. After 4 days i said screw it and stopped taking it. But the depression continued.
I returned to my family doctor now in a desperate state. She immediately told me that i needed to be seen by a psychiatrist/psychologist because she was un-sure as to what the next step should be. Long story short.. I have been told to try the Celexa again this time starting at 5mg and then after a follow up appointment increase to 10mg.
The funny thing is.. I'm feeling relatively back to normal now.. even thought i haven't started the medication again yet, (knock on wood). Anyways thats my story so far.. I'll probably be posting around.
thanks.
pat.