Gypsystorm
15-03-15, 07:45
For what feels like the millionth time over the past 20 years, I've stopped taking most of my medications. I didn't totally stop with the Xanax because of withdrawals, but I decided I no longer wanted my Cymbalta, Abilify, Ritalin, Valium, and whatever other garbage I shovel into my mouth on a regular basis. This never, ever goes well but I was so miserable I just wanted to to feel like anyone or anything besides myself. I also started taking MDMA a few days ago to help with the depression. (Brilliant, I know.) I know this will all end poorly but the logic isn't factoring in to my decision making right now. I was up for three days, asleep for two, and now my head is swimming somewhere in the middle. Nonjudgmental advice would be greatly appreciated.