little.miss.worry
23-03-15, 23:43
I go the doctors literally every single week with something new. I'm at breaking point. I go to counselling every Tuesday, at the moment, it's not helping me at all. I am trying with it and trying these different techniques but I'm not improving. Obviously you have to give it time so I'm trying to keep faith :)
So anyway, tomorrow antics will be, once again off to the doctors with something new! On Friday, I found a lump under my chin and it feels like a hard, bigger than a pea sized shape ball. After looking on No More Panic I discovered that it could just be a gland that has swollen for whatever reason. But, because I've poked and prodded it that much it's starting to really hurt and it's very tender. And since today, i've been getting really bad ear pain. And i'm thinking maybe it's all linked. So, i'm going to have to get it checked out. Ear pain doesn't worry me much because I know if it was an ear infection it goes away with anti biotics. But what's bothering me more is this lump. It must be enlarged for a reason and i'm worried it's something bad :(
And, i'm getting myself in a tizz because i'm embarrassed to keep going the doctors every week and i'm tired of it. I'm worried they'll turn around and tell me to get lost quite frankly. Considering I go about something new ALL of the time. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore :shrug: I feel alone all of the time too which makes me cry. I have people here for me but I just don't feel like family and friends truly understand. It's ruining my life. :weep:
So anyway, tomorrow antics will be, once again off to the doctors with something new! On Friday, I found a lump under my chin and it feels like a hard, bigger than a pea sized shape ball. After looking on No More Panic I discovered that it could just be a gland that has swollen for whatever reason. But, because I've poked and prodded it that much it's starting to really hurt and it's very tender. And since today, i've been getting really bad ear pain. And i'm thinking maybe it's all linked. So, i'm going to have to get it checked out. Ear pain doesn't worry me much because I know if it was an ear infection it goes away with anti biotics. But what's bothering me more is this lump. It must be enlarged for a reason and i'm worried it's something bad :(
And, i'm getting myself in a tizz because i'm embarrassed to keep going the doctors every week and i'm tired of it. I'm worried they'll turn around and tell me to get lost quite frankly. Considering I go about something new ALL of the time. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore :shrug: I feel alone all of the time too which makes me cry. I have people here for me but I just don't feel like family and friends truly understand. It's ruining my life. :weep: