looking4answers
21-01-07, 00:34
Yesterday my wife was ill,she slept all day and I would go and come from the bed because we had people here working outside but she wanted me to stay close by.I felt as though there was no blood in my arms or legs ..I even thought for a few minutes that my right foot was getting blue but looked at it again in regular light and it seemed ok.Anyway at the end of the day I laid down and could hear my heartbeat of course and felt as though with every beat it made my body shake.Like a car when its miss firing and shaking..I don't know if it was just late afternoon and I had gotten up to early that morning so I laid back down and went to sleep.As I slept the worry crept in and caused me to feel strange.We slept until about 10 pm and then ate and then went back to sleep .I have had weird dreams all night so I woke and it had snowed and we decided to just nap during the day.i had weird dreams all day and when I woke didnt want to wake.Its like I rather be asleep than awake .My mind seems like it plays tricks on me when im napping and when I wake its hard for me to think ,kind of just unreal feeling and makes me want to just go back to sleep.I have read things like this but never really experiened it.I was in a deep depression yesterday as I was awake most of the day but sat there and thought about every and was depressed about where we lived and worried about my health and guess it went into my dreams as well.Now I feel a little removed from being awake and hopefully this will pass.I hope its all anxiety and temporary .The shuttering or what I thought was shuttering of my heart hasnt reappeared today neither has the loss of blood flow in my body that i thought i was experiencing.I get to the point where I don't trust my emotions nor my feelings.I seem ok but not sure that I am.Anyone else ever feel this and the heart thing as well.Although I have been told that im ok over and over..I never felt this way before..
PRAYER FOR FREEDOM FROM SUFFERING
May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of befriending each other.
May those who find themselves in trackless, fearful wilderness--
the children, the aged, the unprotected--
be guarded by beneficent celestials,
and may they swiftly attain Buddhahood.
PRAYER FOR FREEDOM FROM SUFFERING
May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of befriending each other.
May those who find themselves in trackless, fearful wilderness--
the children, the aged, the unprotected--
be guarded by beneficent celestials,
and may they swiftly attain Buddhahood.