Cusper
13-04-15, 14:58
So the most recent disease is ovarian cancer. Actually, I thought had this disease a couple of years ago and went to emergency to get a scan which came out fine.
But the last week I have had terrible anxiety again. (I have also recently had abnormal cells removed from my cervix and I worry about them spreading)
So over the course of the weekend I was reading everyone's posts with anything related to ovarian cancer. I went and read the threads of the people who were worried they'd had it. Funnily enough, I had begun to notice a distinct pattern of concerns over certain diseases. This was the thing I wanted to see.
Because as much as I believe... "well this time it's finally true!" I had noticed that a lot of other people on this forum had the same thought pattern. Although they had been worried about several other terminal diseases in the past, this is particular worry will be the one that gets them.
It was kind of an "ah Ha" moment for me. Not to mention the actual diseases we obsess over. I noticed that most people who were worried about the same particular diseases. Pancreatic, bowel, throat, ovarian, cervical, brain, als, ms, parkinsons.
There were more connections I noticed to. Especially the left ribcage pain was also a popular complaint. (i have this too)
My point being is that noticing these similarities in my obsessions helped me realized that I was just doing the same thing over and over again. I know this logically but I have also noticed that when I have time on my hands my anxiety gets much worse.
We had a busy weekend with people over and I have to say I didn't feel any symptoms. Not long after everyone left that I would then start to feel the odd symptom resurface. My suggestion is that if you have HA go and read other people's posts... Look at their threads. You might be able to relate and realize that it is probably just HA.
Especially to those who's doctor sees them often. Mine, I am convinced gives a little sigh when she sees me coming....
But the last week I have had terrible anxiety again. (I have also recently had abnormal cells removed from my cervix and I worry about them spreading)
So over the course of the weekend I was reading everyone's posts with anything related to ovarian cancer. I went and read the threads of the people who were worried they'd had it. Funnily enough, I had begun to notice a distinct pattern of concerns over certain diseases. This was the thing I wanted to see.
Because as much as I believe... "well this time it's finally true!" I had noticed that a lot of other people on this forum had the same thought pattern. Although they had been worried about several other terminal diseases in the past, this is particular worry will be the one that gets them.
It was kind of an "ah Ha" moment for me. Not to mention the actual diseases we obsess over. I noticed that most people who were worried about the same particular diseases. Pancreatic, bowel, throat, ovarian, cervical, brain, als, ms, parkinsons.
There were more connections I noticed to. Especially the left ribcage pain was also a popular complaint. (i have this too)
My point being is that noticing these similarities in my obsessions helped me realized that I was just doing the same thing over and over again. I know this logically but I have also noticed that when I have time on my hands my anxiety gets much worse.
We had a busy weekend with people over and I have to say I didn't feel any symptoms. Not long after everyone left that I would then start to feel the odd symptom resurface. My suggestion is that if you have HA go and read other people's posts... Look at their threads. You might be able to relate and realize that it is probably just HA.
Especially to those who's doctor sees them often. Mine, I am convinced gives a little sigh when she sees me coming....