Help1989
17-04-15, 01:55
Within the last hour I am scared I have melanoma!! You can read my previous post about my HA and I thought I was being rational but I feel so ill in general with other things that Im convinced theres something sinister behind it all. I believe that its when you dont get questions answered that your anxiety grows and grows. Before i was diagnosed with endometriosis i had myself written off with cervical cancer because the docs werent listening to me and the symptoms for the two are similar although what I have is benign!!!
Anyway now I have seen this mole that is dark and raised and about 5mm wide. I have deep back pain that I mentioned in my last post that I want ivnesitgated and funnily enough this mole is right over that place!! My irrational mind has convinced me that the reason for the pain in my back is a big tumour under this mole that is malignant!!
I know I will look back at this post in a few months and laugh at myself but right now I am scared and wish i could be told right now if i'm dying or not. Does anyone else ever feel like this is just too much... i'm sick of that horrible sinking feeling you get when you convince yourself of a new deadly disease!! Any words of wisdom or reassurance at all would be so appreciated right now x
---------- Post added at 01:55 ---------- Previous post was at 01:20 ----------
I must add that I am feeling so guilty right now. I have been speaking to my mum about my HA and she is so worried about me. She herself has so many life long health issues that she is so good at coping with and I feel like a complete failure. Why should it be up to her, with all her issues, to have to reassure then worry herself even more sick about me?! I wish all the pains and symptoms I have would go just so i've got nothing to be anxious about :(
Anyway now I have seen this mole that is dark and raised and about 5mm wide. I have deep back pain that I mentioned in my last post that I want ivnesitgated and funnily enough this mole is right over that place!! My irrational mind has convinced me that the reason for the pain in my back is a big tumour under this mole that is malignant!!
I know I will look back at this post in a few months and laugh at myself but right now I am scared and wish i could be told right now if i'm dying or not. Does anyone else ever feel like this is just too much... i'm sick of that horrible sinking feeling you get when you convince yourself of a new deadly disease!! Any words of wisdom or reassurance at all would be so appreciated right now x
---------- Post added at 01:55 ---------- Previous post was at 01:20 ----------
I must add that I am feeling so guilty right now. I have been speaking to my mum about my HA and she is so worried about me. She herself has so many life long health issues that she is so good at coping with and I feel like a complete failure. Why should it be up to her, with all her issues, to have to reassure then worry herself even more sick about me?! I wish all the pains and symptoms I have would go just so i've got nothing to be anxious about :(