TinkerStars
21-04-15, 21:06
I feel like I'm starting to take a step back in my stupid anxiety.
Tonight I can feel my breathing is different, I'm edgy and my thoughts are all over the place. Who am I? What am I feeling? What should I be feeling? Why am I thinking this? Am I really feeling more anxious again? What if I become a person I don't want to be? I don't even know who I am or what I want to be as it is.
I'm taking 2x 40mg of propanolol and 10mg of cit at the moment, I've been on the cit for 2 weeks and propanolol for around 3 and I have a review with the doctor tomorrow morning. I just feel like I'm not going to get anywhere.
I'm so scared that I don't know how to love, feel, manage my life or just live and let myself enjoy my own company.
I wish this anxiety wasn't a part of my life and I was a normal person :(
Tonight I can feel my breathing is different, I'm edgy and my thoughts are all over the place. Who am I? What am I feeling? What should I be feeling? Why am I thinking this? Am I really feeling more anxious again? What if I become a person I don't want to be? I don't even know who I am or what I want to be as it is.
I'm taking 2x 40mg of propanolol and 10mg of cit at the moment, I've been on the cit for 2 weeks and propanolol for around 3 and I have a review with the doctor tomorrow morning. I just feel like I'm not going to get anywhere.
I'm so scared that I don't know how to love, feel, manage my life or just live and let myself enjoy my own company.
I wish this anxiety wasn't a part of my life and I was a normal person :(