ShellyTai
22-04-15, 09:22
Good Morning everyone,
I've not posted for a while.....have been trying to deal with myself and the health anxiety .... but here we go - in the pits of hell once again.....
I've had health anxiety on & off for 20 years now .....
I've been convinced I've had a brain tumour / liver cancer / stomach cancer / cancer of the oesophagus / pancreatic cancer / throat cancer and the current one is breast cancer !!! :lac:
Has anyone else noticed a pattern in themselves and their HA.
My pattern seems to be .... something gets painful .... I go to the dr in a full blown panic .... can't accept when the dr tells me that there's nothing wrong .... start Sertraline .... in hell for the 1st few weeks while it gets into my system .... start to feel better .... a few months later, decide that I'm better without the sertraline .... come off it .... I'm fine for a few months, almost manic ..... then bang, something else comes along - and we start the whole cycle again :shrug:
Result is - I'm on and off Sertraline a few times in a year (doesn't help at all, I know .... and it's stupid)....and my anxiety is up and down like a yo-yo.
I feel like I can't let myself be happy .... we're planning our family holiday for October - everyone's so excited .... except me !!! This HA is telling me that I won't be going on the family holiday - cause by that time, I'll be really sick or dead .....
I'm fed up looking at my kids - crying cause I'm afraid I won't see them grow up ....
I feel like I'm missing out on my life ...... it's passing me by - while I battle this HA in my head every day.....
Does anyone else feel like this ???? I think I'm getting worse as I get older !!!
So sorry for waffling - thanks for listening .....
xxxxx
I've not posted for a while.....have been trying to deal with myself and the health anxiety .... but here we go - in the pits of hell once again.....
I've had health anxiety on & off for 20 years now .....
I've been convinced I've had a brain tumour / liver cancer / stomach cancer / cancer of the oesophagus / pancreatic cancer / throat cancer and the current one is breast cancer !!! :lac:
Has anyone else noticed a pattern in themselves and their HA.
My pattern seems to be .... something gets painful .... I go to the dr in a full blown panic .... can't accept when the dr tells me that there's nothing wrong .... start Sertraline .... in hell for the 1st few weeks while it gets into my system .... start to feel better .... a few months later, decide that I'm better without the sertraline .... come off it .... I'm fine for a few months, almost manic ..... then bang, something else comes along - and we start the whole cycle again :shrug:
Result is - I'm on and off Sertraline a few times in a year (doesn't help at all, I know .... and it's stupid)....and my anxiety is up and down like a yo-yo.
I feel like I can't let myself be happy .... we're planning our family holiday for October - everyone's so excited .... except me !!! This HA is telling me that I won't be going on the family holiday - cause by that time, I'll be really sick or dead .....
I'm fed up looking at my kids - crying cause I'm afraid I won't see them grow up ....
I feel like I'm missing out on my life ...... it's passing me by - while I battle this HA in my head every day.....
Does anyone else feel like this ???? I think I'm getting worse as I get older !!!
So sorry for waffling - thanks for listening .....
xxxxx