EleeBateman
23-04-15, 01:47
Hi guys
Basically, i'm at uni and am approaching exams. For the past 2 months i've had a serious case of health anxiety, i was so certain i had a gynaecological cancer that I cancelled my holiday, avoided everything, planned my treatments and everything. In the end, I got a loan and paid to privately have a pelvic ultrasound scan not on the NHS, it was clear.
I'm still having pains, but i know there isn't a tumour or something.
So why do i still feel dreadful? I know the doctor was thorough, they were private and expensive (£234 i was mortified) (i know this shouldn't mean better but y'know)
This is ruining my life, I can't even think about my exams or my life at all. I keep genuinely hearing a doctor saying there's nothing they can do for me.. I can't go to sleep because I think I'm going to pass away in the night. I know this isn't a reason to miss exams, that isn't what I'm wanting to do. But I genuinely can't focus on anything.
Has anyone else experienced this? What do i do?
I've been taken propranolol and the odd diazepam, but the weird heart feelings from those make me worry too. My doctors also given me citalopram to improve in the long term, but I'm not taking them as i'm not sure it'll help much with this? Everyone I talk to about it is just getting mad, because they're sick of me moping around and talking about symptoms and illnesses. I'm just worried the anxiety is clouding everyones judgement of my symptoms????
And now i've been digging around in my tummy quite hard and keep finding little hard lumps that move around a little. Has anyone got these? I'm trying my hardest not to jump on the cancer-googling-spree. But am aware of soft tissue sarcoma, but surely tumours don't grow in about 10 different places?
thanks guys x
Basically, i'm at uni and am approaching exams. For the past 2 months i've had a serious case of health anxiety, i was so certain i had a gynaecological cancer that I cancelled my holiday, avoided everything, planned my treatments and everything. In the end, I got a loan and paid to privately have a pelvic ultrasound scan not on the NHS, it was clear.
I'm still having pains, but i know there isn't a tumour or something.
So why do i still feel dreadful? I know the doctor was thorough, they were private and expensive (£234 i was mortified) (i know this shouldn't mean better but y'know)
This is ruining my life, I can't even think about my exams or my life at all. I keep genuinely hearing a doctor saying there's nothing they can do for me.. I can't go to sleep because I think I'm going to pass away in the night. I know this isn't a reason to miss exams, that isn't what I'm wanting to do. But I genuinely can't focus on anything.
Has anyone else experienced this? What do i do?
I've been taken propranolol and the odd diazepam, but the weird heart feelings from those make me worry too. My doctors also given me citalopram to improve in the long term, but I'm not taking them as i'm not sure it'll help much with this? Everyone I talk to about it is just getting mad, because they're sick of me moping around and talking about symptoms and illnesses. I'm just worried the anxiety is clouding everyones judgement of my symptoms????
And now i've been digging around in my tummy quite hard and keep finding little hard lumps that move around a little. Has anyone got these? I'm trying my hardest not to jump on the cancer-googling-spree. But am aware of soft tissue sarcoma, but surely tumours don't grow in about 10 different places?
thanks guys x