mconlon
22-01-07, 14:36
Need a bit of help on this one folks . .
After trying trying loads of different anti-depressants and having a crappy time on them I decided that I would try and defeat my panic attacks and health anxiety with CBT and some relaxation - so for months on end I challenged my thoughts in a diary and did progressive muscle relaxation evry day and do you know what - I started to be what I considered to be "normal" - getting bakc to work and being successful, enjoying my marriage instead of being scared all the time(which I'm sure was never very attractive). I followed the ~"Healing with Freud or Przac" maxim that it is possible to heal oneself and Claire Weekes cetainly helped a lot.
But Last week I had a panic attack right out of the blue and although I got past and through it succesfully without hiding under the blankets I am having major issues with my heart - it feels as if it is flipping over and sometimes jerks me as if having an extra beat or missing one or something. Now I've read a few posts about ectopic beats - is this what I have? Cos sometimes they make me feel sick or as if I have been cattle prodded - when they happen I can't convince myself that something is about to go hideously wrong.
I'm severly Pi**ed off that after all my effort I am at the mercy of this beast again and terrified that something is wrong with me. I'm terrified of going to my GP cos he got fed up looking at me last year with all my aches and pains and never bothered checking me out - he always said "It's anxiety and panic".
I'm a teacher and I am on show all the time in my lessons and I'm finding it hard to hide these events . . . bugger there goes another one .. .
ARGGHHH!!!
MC
After trying trying loads of different anti-depressants and having a crappy time on them I decided that I would try and defeat my panic attacks and health anxiety with CBT and some relaxation - so for months on end I challenged my thoughts in a diary and did progressive muscle relaxation evry day and do you know what - I started to be what I considered to be "normal" - getting bakc to work and being successful, enjoying my marriage instead of being scared all the time(which I'm sure was never very attractive). I followed the ~"Healing with Freud or Przac" maxim that it is possible to heal oneself and Claire Weekes cetainly helped a lot.
But Last week I had a panic attack right out of the blue and although I got past and through it succesfully without hiding under the blankets I am having major issues with my heart - it feels as if it is flipping over and sometimes jerks me as if having an extra beat or missing one or something. Now I've read a few posts about ectopic beats - is this what I have? Cos sometimes they make me feel sick or as if I have been cattle prodded - when they happen I can't convince myself that something is about to go hideously wrong.
I'm severly Pi**ed off that after all my effort I am at the mercy of this beast again and terrified that something is wrong with me. I'm terrified of going to my GP cos he got fed up looking at me last year with all my aches and pains and never bothered checking me out - he always said "It's anxiety and panic".
I'm a teacher and I am on show all the time in my lessons and I'm finding it hard to hide these events . . . bugger there goes another one .. .
ARGGHHH!!!
MC