Gotagetthroughthis
27-04-15, 17:42
So after a 3 years struggling with anxiety, trying various medications, getting off them, starting a new job and working for a year and a half, making progress and slowly building a life again even if it wasn't much....I have now ended up nearly back to where I started.
I a struggling through each minute, the feelings of doom and dread repeatedly washing over me. I am constantly on the verge of panic, I don't know if I can have a panic attack attack now, its more just constant sever anxiety and feeling of dread. Trying to search for one ounce of positivity or reassurance in my brain but struggling to find any. I cant sleep and feel detached/derealised.
I just don't know what to do now, I feel I have no options, no hope of improving. I have tried most of the anti depressants they didn't really help, plus I really don't want to pollute my body with any more chemicals. I am in therapy but it doesn't seem to be helping. I live a pretty healthy lifestyle but this has dragged me back down to nothing.
It all started with my head feeling strange and pressured, kind of empty/cotton wool like, with brain fog/detachment its very hard to explain but its a horrible odd sensation, as well as some stabbing head pains. I had some hayfever in the days before this and had some acupuncture for it so I don't know if that has added to my head getting worse but my head has felt strange for the past 5/6 days without any let up. I wake up after 2 or so hours sleep and bang the head symptoms are there and this starts the cycle of me being super anxious and depressed. Its the worry that this feeling in my head will never go away that's the main thing.
I know my anxiety is probably contributing to my head feeling so odd but I cant stop the head feeling odd and therefore cant stop the anxiety at the moment.
I feel hopeless, like there's nothing and knowone that can help. Just hoping I can get a good nights sleep at some point and hopefully I will feel a bit better.
I a struggling through each minute, the feelings of doom and dread repeatedly washing over me. I am constantly on the verge of panic, I don't know if I can have a panic attack attack now, its more just constant sever anxiety and feeling of dread. Trying to search for one ounce of positivity or reassurance in my brain but struggling to find any. I cant sleep and feel detached/derealised.
I just don't know what to do now, I feel I have no options, no hope of improving. I have tried most of the anti depressants they didn't really help, plus I really don't want to pollute my body with any more chemicals. I am in therapy but it doesn't seem to be helping. I live a pretty healthy lifestyle but this has dragged me back down to nothing.
It all started with my head feeling strange and pressured, kind of empty/cotton wool like, with brain fog/detachment its very hard to explain but its a horrible odd sensation, as well as some stabbing head pains. I had some hayfever in the days before this and had some acupuncture for it so I don't know if that has added to my head getting worse but my head has felt strange for the past 5/6 days without any let up. I wake up after 2 or so hours sleep and bang the head symptoms are there and this starts the cycle of me being super anxious and depressed. Its the worry that this feeling in my head will never go away that's the main thing.
I know my anxiety is probably contributing to my head feeling so odd but I cant stop the head feeling odd and therefore cant stop the anxiety at the moment.
I feel hopeless, like there's nothing and knowone that can help. Just hoping I can get a good nights sleep at some point and hopefully I will feel a bit better.