Bonnibelle
06-05-15, 10:01
I started with terrible panic attacks in 2013 which led to agoraphobia. I go out now and life is really good. I just still struggle with appointments and always need my husband to accompany me to them. I avoided the dentist and doctor as much as possible for 18 months but now I do go but can't seem to do them alone or without feeling intense anticipatory anxiety weeks before and during. I go red hot in the face, shaking, feel I will black out.... horrible.
I have this year been to the dentist and needed treatment, optician (alone didn't need hubby) and GP. I can now take my children to appointments without my husband. Well my letter arrived at the end of March to say I was due a smear test. Of course noone likes them but for me I have a real fear due to the agoraphobia as it's not a short appointment and aswell as always being fearful about smears I now have the agoraphobia looming on top so it's a double whammy. I am coming up to 6 weeks overdue now and I am worrying myself sick I will have cancer the longer I leave it and I will leave my children....... I go every 3 years on the dot despite hating it but this is really tough for me now and I keep putting it off. I don't know what to do. I just know I will panic as I still find going to the GP very tough. I can't exactly take my husband to this :-( I know I will panic, as I hate smears as I have bled after them in the past which freaks me out but having the fear I will have a panic attack and want to leave is scaring me alot. I am going to make a show of myself. I can see myself having a huge panic attack in there and I can't exactly run out with no knickers on haha!!
How do you ladies cope with these appointments? I know if I do this I really will be so much stronger as I have come on leaps and bounds in the last year, I have my life back but I hate how I dread appointments so much.
Bon :blush:
I have this year been to the dentist and needed treatment, optician (alone didn't need hubby) and GP. I can now take my children to appointments without my husband. Well my letter arrived at the end of March to say I was due a smear test. Of course noone likes them but for me I have a real fear due to the agoraphobia as it's not a short appointment and aswell as always being fearful about smears I now have the agoraphobia looming on top so it's a double whammy. I am coming up to 6 weeks overdue now and I am worrying myself sick I will have cancer the longer I leave it and I will leave my children....... I go every 3 years on the dot despite hating it but this is really tough for me now and I keep putting it off. I don't know what to do. I just know I will panic as I still find going to the GP very tough. I can't exactly take my husband to this :-( I know I will panic, as I hate smears as I have bled after them in the past which freaks me out but having the fear I will have a panic attack and want to leave is scaring me alot. I am going to make a show of myself. I can see myself having a huge panic attack in there and I can't exactly run out with no knickers on haha!!
How do you ladies cope with these appointments? I know if I do this I really will be so much stronger as I have come on leaps and bounds in the last year, I have my life back but I hate how I dread appointments so much.
Bon :blush: