Reemy
24-01-07, 12:46
Hello everyone! I just found this site yesterday, and I'm glad I did. This seems like just what I needed.
I'm 35 and I've been dealing with anxiety to some degree for at least the last 11 years. Probably longer than that, but I know I was 24 when I had my first panic attack.
After years of panic attacks and countless trips to the hosiptal, I started seeing a therapist and things improved some. I had about 5 panic attack-free years. But this past year has seen my anxiety problems escalate and now I'm almost always feel panic.
Last year my dearest 16-year old pet died, a month later my mum (my best friend) died tragically, then a member of my husband's family died soon after, and weeks later a friend committed suicide. I suppose it's no surprise that all the stress and grief and shock brought back the anxiety.
Currently I'm dealing with general anxiety/panic attacks, OCD, PTSD, and major health anxiety. My overall health has declined and the health anxiety has become obsessive. It didn't help matters when my constant fear that "something's wrong with my heart" was confirmed rather than proved wrong. I have SVT and have just been released from he hospital with a new, risky medicine--and, of course, I'm freaking out about all the warnings and possible side effects. But with my health anxiety I don't even know if I can judge when/if I'm really feeling side effects. And I can't seem to make myself stop checking my pulse.
With all the loss of loved ones last year (most especially mum), I've become fixated on the fear of dying, or the death of my remaining loved ones. It's like I'm just waiting for the next horrible thing to happen. I can't seem to enjoy much of anything for fear of what may happen.
I'm staying hypersensitive and on alert all the time. It's an exhausting way to live. It's interferring with my work and my relationships. I don't want to be like this! I'll be seeing my doctor later today for a heart monitor, and I'm going to ask about being put on Escitalopram while I'm there. Hopefully I can get back to seeing a good therapist again soon.
Thanks for allowing me to introduce myself and vent a bit.
~Reemy
I'm 35 and I've been dealing with anxiety to some degree for at least the last 11 years. Probably longer than that, but I know I was 24 when I had my first panic attack.
After years of panic attacks and countless trips to the hosiptal, I started seeing a therapist and things improved some. I had about 5 panic attack-free years. But this past year has seen my anxiety problems escalate and now I'm almost always feel panic.
Last year my dearest 16-year old pet died, a month later my mum (my best friend) died tragically, then a member of my husband's family died soon after, and weeks later a friend committed suicide. I suppose it's no surprise that all the stress and grief and shock brought back the anxiety.
Currently I'm dealing with general anxiety/panic attacks, OCD, PTSD, and major health anxiety. My overall health has declined and the health anxiety has become obsessive. It didn't help matters when my constant fear that "something's wrong with my heart" was confirmed rather than proved wrong. I have SVT and have just been released from he hospital with a new, risky medicine--and, of course, I'm freaking out about all the warnings and possible side effects. But with my health anxiety I don't even know if I can judge when/if I'm really feeling side effects. And I can't seem to make myself stop checking my pulse.
With all the loss of loved ones last year (most especially mum), I've become fixated on the fear of dying, or the death of my remaining loved ones. It's like I'm just waiting for the next horrible thing to happen. I can't seem to enjoy much of anything for fear of what may happen.
I'm staying hypersensitive and on alert all the time. It's an exhausting way to live. It's interferring with my work and my relationships. I don't want to be like this! I'll be seeing my doctor later today for a heart monitor, and I'm going to ask about being put on Escitalopram while I'm there. Hopefully I can get back to seeing a good therapist again soon.
Thanks for allowing me to introduce myself and vent a bit.
~Reemy