zeros
09-05-15, 00:22
Hey folks,
I'm getting extremely frustrated about the psychological instability that comes with anxiety in general. It seems like I am hopping from one problem to another and while I'm at it there are only a few days of relative peace of mind in between. In these days there is a general sense of doom while I'm trying to hold on to the state of neutrality as hard as I can only to slip away to another stupid obsession.... It leaves me in a constant state of instability. There is no predicting when I will feel stable enough to deal with challenges. Even when I make appointments in the future I am not sure if at that time I will be stable enough to deal with them...that's a horrible state of existence don't you agree?
After years of analyzing I concluded that it is in these moments between obsessions/anxieties where the grand problem lies. Somehow it is the pressure of feeling normal... the addiction to anxiety if you will that drives me to another obsession. I can't just feel good. Once I start feeling good my mind goes "oh, you're feeling good, that's terrific but it's too good to be true.. where are all the problems" after that it's just a strom of "oh no oh no" in my mind because all the past obsessions come crawling out of the abyss to catch me again.
How do you guys deal with it when you feel good? Is there a good way to just avoid slipping from one obsession/anxiety into another?
I'd welcome all ideas at this point. What has worked for you?
Jake
I'm getting extremely frustrated about the psychological instability that comes with anxiety in general. It seems like I am hopping from one problem to another and while I'm at it there are only a few days of relative peace of mind in between. In these days there is a general sense of doom while I'm trying to hold on to the state of neutrality as hard as I can only to slip away to another stupid obsession.... It leaves me in a constant state of instability. There is no predicting when I will feel stable enough to deal with challenges. Even when I make appointments in the future I am not sure if at that time I will be stable enough to deal with them...that's a horrible state of existence don't you agree?
After years of analyzing I concluded that it is in these moments between obsessions/anxieties where the grand problem lies. Somehow it is the pressure of feeling normal... the addiction to anxiety if you will that drives me to another obsession. I can't just feel good. Once I start feeling good my mind goes "oh, you're feeling good, that's terrific but it's too good to be true.. where are all the problems" after that it's just a strom of "oh no oh no" in my mind because all the past obsessions come crawling out of the abyss to catch me again.
How do you guys deal with it when you feel good? Is there a good way to just avoid slipping from one obsession/anxiety into another?
I'd welcome all ideas at this point. What has worked for you?
Jake