xrose_fleurx
25-01-07, 12:10
Hello everyone..
I am Rose and from Brighton. I came to this just under a year ago whilst at the worst of my condition but cannot remember my login details! So thought I would re-register. I didn't make much of a contribution last time anyway. I know it might sound bad but I was in such a state that I found it very difficult to come on here and read about the frightening things that were happening to me.
Having got so much better now, slowly and at my own pace, my mind doesn't seem as fragile and I seem to be able to deal with little everyday things like getting out of bed now without panicking or having a permanent gripping feeling in my throat! My boundaries have got bigger too and thankfully able to go out further in the car (the most up to about 20 miles away so far - just once) and by walking (around the block on my own is the furthest - 20 min walk)! This feels amazing. Also able to be alone at home.
I am still left with alot of phobias and this includes getting the heart rate up! Walking up hills etc, long walks, going too far in a car, also motorways and traffic jams (was in one the other day for 2 mins so I made an emergency u-turn and got out of it! Luckily I had an escape otherwise would have had first panic attack for a few months!), travel by plane, boat, train, bus. I found pilates very helpful just after my bad period and have now progressed to aerobics (although I take this easy re heart rate thing and panic attacks are still constantly in my mind when at aerobics classes). I started by doing a workout DVD at home but very gently so as not to stir the feelings, I now go to classes in a sports centre as well. Was worried of the effects of staying home all the time whilst so agrophobic and not getting exercise. Reading was also helpful.
During my bad stage I started counselling (was so thankful that the counsellor lived just around the corner! as I crawled out of the car there every week a sniffling, red faced, quivering wreck) then a few months later a 10 week NHS anxiety managment course. This combined with bottles of rescue remedy, Kalms, water and nicorette inhalors, shades, music and strong mints taken with me everywhere I go, have all helped me get to this stage that I never thought I would be at again. I still take this emergency kit with me for the odd journey or long journeys but its progress. Otherwise I continue to carry rescue remedy, nicorette inhalor, mints and water with me al the time.
Refused to take the prescribed anti-depressants and I still have the unopened packet at home, this was a personal choice as couldn't face the side-effects. I did take St Johns Wort for months and months and have only just stopped taking it (not sure if an immunity is built up from it after a few months anyway). I also started taking the vitamin B complex, calcium and magnesium, fish oils and primrose oil every day since the breakdown, I think I read about these on here Was also recommended to take the primrose oil by the doctor as Panic Attacks intensifed just before time of each month.
Thought that by coming back it would help with the travel phobias and various things I have yet to battle, maybe also to give some hope to others. This is a great site and there is SO much help to look through!
Thanks guys x
I am Rose and from Brighton. I came to this just under a year ago whilst at the worst of my condition but cannot remember my login details! So thought I would re-register. I didn't make much of a contribution last time anyway. I know it might sound bad but I was in such a state that I found it very difficult to come on here and read about the frightening things that were happening to me.
Having got so much better now, slowly and at my own pace, my mind doesn't seem as fragile and I seem to be able to deal with little everyday things like getting out of bed now without panicking or having a permanent gripping feeling in my throat! My boundaries have got bigger too and thankfully able to go out further in the car (the most up to about 20 miles away so far - just once) and by walking (around the block on my own is the furthest - 20 min walk)! This feels amazing. Also able to be alone at home.
I am still left with alot of phobias and this includes getting the heart rate up! Walking up hills etc, long walks, going too far in a car, also motorways and traffic jams (was in one the other day for 2 mins so I made an emergency u-turn and got out of it! Luckily I had an escape otherwise would have had first panic attack for a few months!), travel by plane, boat, train, bus. I found pilates very helpful just after my bad period and have now progressed to aerobics (although I take this easy re heart rate thing and panic attacks are still constantly in my mind when at aerobics classes). I started by doing a workout DVD at home but very gently so as not to stir the feelings, I now go to classes in a sports centre as well. Was worried of the effects of staying home all the time whilst so agrophobic and not getting exercise. Reading was also helpful.
During my bad stage I started counselling (was so thankful that the counsellor lived just around the corner! as I crawled out of the car there every week a sniffling, red faced, quivering wreck) then a few months later a 10 week NHS anxiety managment course. This combined with bottles of rescue remedy, Kalms, water and nicorette inhalors, shades, music and strong mints taken with me everywhere I go, have all helped me get to this stage that I never thought I would be at again. I still take this emergency kit with me for the odd journey or long journeys but its progress. Otherwise I continue to carry rescue remedy, nicorette inhalor, mints and water with me al the time.
Refused to take the prescribed anti-depressants and I still have the unopened packet at home, this was a personal choice as couldn't face the side-effects. I did take St Johns Wort for months and months and have only just stopped taking it (not sure if an immunity is built up from it after a few months anyway). I also started taking the vitamin B complex, calcium and magnesium, fish oils and primrose oil every day since the breakdown, I think I read about these on here Was also recommended to take the primrose oil by the doctor as Panic Attacks intensifed just before time of each month.
Thought that by coming back it would help with the travel phobias and various things I have yet to battle, maybe also to give some hope to others. This is a great site and there is SO much help to look through!
Thanks guys x