harriettravis24
19-05-15, 21:47
Hi,
this is my first post on here i am 18 and have serious health anxiety and depression due to this, the doctor told me about this site ages ago but i chose to ignore my anxiety and it has got to a point i cant cope any longer but i can't tell my parents as the doctor put me on sertraline tablets about a month ago which i couldn't take for longer than 2 days persuading my parents i could get better without taking it because i couldnt cope with the nausea side effects so if they find out how bad i am they will put me back on it and my mum will get poorly again as she did the last time i was this bad the stress really got to her. however i think i have developed a eating disorder as I'm scared to eat big meals or meat out of fear it will make me sick, i wait until i am really hungry then eat a small snack such as a banana to take the edge off as its all i can eat. i know it is bad for me and everyone is telling me i have lost weight but i cannot help it because I'm scared everything will make me sick, my boyfriend used to be a chef and did a college course in it however i still can't eat his cooking without a panic attack following. i can't stay at his house and i can't go out for meals with him it is effecting us really bad. i didn't know where else to turn as i can't speak to anyone because the doctors haven't sorted out a therapist yet and i still don't see how cut will help me with this as i think rationally but still can't do it in the end i just feel weak and rubbish all the time but i work loads of shifts and college because staying busy is the only way i can actually eat and stay calm. also i don't know if my grammar and things are too bad for this but i have enough writing for college and just wanted to write this t get it off my chest not feel like I'm writing an essay that will be marked.
cheers I'm hoping this site will help me cope at the moment as i have nothing else
this is my first post on here i am 18 and have serious health anxiety and depression due to this, the doctor told me about this site ages ago but i chose to ignore my anxiety and it has got to a point i cant cope any longer but i can't tell my parents as the doctor put me on sertraline tablets about a month ago which i couldn't take for longer than 2 days persuading my parents i could get better without taking it because i couldnt cope with the nausea side effects so if they find out how bad i am they will put me back on it and my mum will get poorly again as she did the last time i was this bad the stress really got to her. however i think i have developed a eating disorder as I'm scared to eat big meals or meat out of fear it will make me sick, i wait until i am really hungry then eat a small snack such as a banana to take the edge off as its all i can eat. i know it is bad for me and everyone is telling me i have lost weight but i cannot help it because I'm scared everything will make me sick, my boyfriend used to be a chef and did a college course in it however i still can't eat his cooking without a panic attack following. i can't stay at his house and i can't go out for meals with him it is effecting us really bad. i didn't know where else to turn as i can't speak to anyone because the doctors haven't sorted out a therapist yet and i still don't see how cut will help me with this as i think rationally but still can't do it in the end i just feel weak and rubbish all the time but i work loads of shifts and college because staying busy is the only way i can actually eat and stay calm. also i don't know if my grammar and things are too bad for this but i have enough writing for college and just wanted to write this t get it off my chest not feel like I'm writing an essay that will be marked.
cheers I'm hoping this site will help me cope at the moment as i have nothing else