joelhall
26-01-07, 13:18
Hi all,
My name's Joel, i'm 24 (until March at least) and currently live 9in Peterborough, occaisionally staying in Aylesbury with my parents. I 've been suiffering with panic and anxiety for around 4 years, 'though I had some psychotherapy and was fine for around 2 years, with only isolated periods of anxiety. Since last October however, they've returned (so I'm told) and I've become really bad this time round - agoraphobia, trouble relaxing, always feeling hot or nauseous or weak and shaky, and finding it impossible to relax and interact with other people properly. I'm convinced I'm dying of something and everyone around me treats me like I'm imagining it or just get annoyed with me talking about it, and have a go at me for whining, etc.
My GP referred me to Manor House againfor therapy, but of course there's an NHS waiting list! All I really need is people to talk to but it's very hard finding someone who will listen without trying to give me "advice" or starting their sentances with "I know these symptoms seem real to you...".
Worse still we're expecting another baby in about 2 weeks, and I'm not sure about how I'll cope with being in a strange place (that's the maternity ward - which I've been to before) or being on my own and trying to look after a 3 year old. I was a professional drummer but I cannot do that anymore, and when we have guests I make excuses for them to leave because I feel so crap. Now I feel incredibly isolated from everyone and like I'm letting everyone down.
I could go on but I don't want to get on your tits as well.
My name's Joel, i'm 24 (until March at least) and currently live 9in Peterborough, occaisionally staying in Aylesbury with my parents. I 've been suiffering with panic and anxiety for around 4 years, 'though I had some psychotherapy and was fine for around 2 years, with only isolated periods of anxiety. Since last October however, they've returned (so I'm told) and I've become really bad this time round - agoraphobia, trouble relaxing, always feeling hot or nauseous or weak and shaky, and finding it impossible to relax and interact with other people properly. I'm convinced I'm dying of something and everyone around me treats me like I'm imagining it or just get annoyed with me talking about it, and have a go at me for whining, etc.
My GP referred me to Manor House againfor therapy, but of course there's an NHS waiting list! All I really need is people to talk to but it's very hard finding someone who will listen without trying to give me "advice" or starting their sentances with "I know these symptoms seem real to you...".
Worse still we're expecting another baby in about 2 weeks, and I'm not sure about how I'll cope with being in a strange place (that's the maternity ward - which I've been to before) or being on my own and trying to look after a 3 year old. I was a professional drummer but I cannot do that anymore, and when we have guests I make excuses for them to leave because I feel so crap. Now I feel incredibly isolated from everyone and like I'm letting everyone down.
I could go on but I don't want to get on your tits as well.