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08-09-04, 01:03
Hey everyone,
Don't know where to start really. long story you know, but to cut it short. Sarah, new as she's known had her first panic attack in august last year. Stuff before that went down which was really traumatic for her and me, to top it off the misdiagnosis only made the worry worse. Eventually, we found out what was going on.
Anyway, after 3 months or so something happened to me which at the time i didnt understand. It was a sunday in november, i got up for the rugby world cup,to watch england, even though i felt rough, like i had flu or something. I was feeling worse and all i can desribe it as, is as if something popped in my head. I thought i would pass out, i didn't but started sweating , no dripping! it was horrible.
Months later, Xmas was horrible, i spent it in norway where sarah had her first panic attack,(my brothers wife is norwegian) i felt so rough and dizzy.
Then Easter, i was in malaysia, my mum and sister live there and my mindset got much worse. My flight involved 3 planes and 30 hours each way, sarah wasnt with me and the whole time i was worried that something would happen to her and every time i'd been there to sort it out.you know reassure her and generally do everything. yeh superman! hmmm...
On the flight back, i was a mess, the carpet on the plane floor was spinning. By the way it was a muslim airline so no booze, i wasnt drunk i promise! On my first stop i bought paracetomol cos i was so paranoid and burning up. It helped and i got back to heathrow after the worst journey of my life. They then lost our luggage and over a day after i left and all this happened, i spent 2 hours in baggage reclaim just waiting. it was hideous.
At this point i realised something was wrong so i went to the GP. I was so paranoid and the receptionist forgot i was there!i waited for an hour a nervous wreck b4 i said annything! What do you mean you forgot to sign me in?!!! i couldnt believe it! The doctor was great, but when i told her i felt i was under stressand the whole story with sarah and that; she told me it was anxiety and a form of depression.
I immediately said i didnt want anti-deps and so she gave me beta-blockers, propanalol to take 'as required', hmmm.
6 months or so ago, sarah and i went to the theatre, we had to leave as sarah was freaking. We didnt even get into the auditorium. This sunday we went again and what happened? I freaked....
We went to see a show, the comedy store, and i was nervous at first but then started laughing so hard it was great. Then 9 months after it first happened, it did it again...it felt like a sudden popping in my brain, like a million brain cells exploded and i thought i would pass out.
My next thought was the last thing i want in a comedy show is to collapse in front of everybody so run!!!after all its not funny and being the centre of attention is not fun in my book in this kind of situation. I didnt though, i sat tight and started sweating so much. I daren't laugh in case i pass out. it was really pants.
THis was sunday, its midnight now on tuesday night and i feel hideous. Have done since.
When i went to my GP a few months back she told me to see a counsellor. I am now, and she tells me i have panic attacks and anxiety. Sometimes I think i'm depressed too, but i describe it as being really frustrated, better terminology you see.
Anyway, after that, if you are still reading this sorry, i really want to know if anyone knows what i mean? My panic attack symptom was popping head, hmmm, and otherwise, my anxiety makes my eyes kill so bad. It's as if they cant focus properly, they struggle to focus at all when im nervous and it makes me so uneasy. Sometimes they water, they are blurry, and my eyes feel under pressure... ouch...
Its been happening a long time, i thought i was getting better but since the theatre i'm as bad as ever. I'm considering anti-depressants, so any advice on them and my symptoms would be really good. Does anyone know what i'm talking about?
Sorry bout the essay, hope i got the story across ok!
Please hel
Don't know where to start really. long story you know, but to cut it short. Sarah, new as she's known had her first panic attack in august last year. Stuff before that went down which was really traumatic for her and me, to top it off the misdiagnosis only made the worry worse. Eventually, we found out what was going on.
Anyway, after 3 months or so something happened to me which at the time i didnt understand. It was a sunday in november, i got up for the rugby world cup,to watch england, even though i felt rough, like i had flu or something. I was feeling worse and all i can desribe it as, is as if something popped in my head. I thought i would pass out, i didn't but started sweating , no dripping! it was horrible.
Months later, Xmas was horrible, i spent it in norway where sarah had her first panic attack,(my brothers wife is norwegian) i felt so rough and dizzy.
Then Easter, i was in malaysia, my mum and sister live there and my mindset got much worse. My flight involved 3 planes and 30 hours each way, sarah wasnt with me and the whole time i was worried that something would happen to her and every time i'd been there to sort it out.you know reassure her and generally do everything. yeh superman! hmmm...
On the flight back, i was a mess, the carpet on the plane floor was spinning. By the way it was a muslim airline so no booze, i wasnt drunk i promise! On my first stop i bought paracetomol cos i was so paranoid and burning up. It helped and i got back to heathrow after the worst journey of my life. They then lost our luggage and over a day after i left and all this happened, i spent 2 hours in baggage reclaim just waiting. it was hideous.
At this point i realised something was wrong so i went to the GP. I was so paranoid and the receptionist forgot i was there!i waited for an hour a nervous wreck b4 i said annything! What do you mean you forgot to sign me in?!!! i couldnt believe it! The doctor was great, but when i told her i felt i was under stressand the whole story with sarah and that; she told me it was anxiety and a form of depression.
I immediately said i didnt want anti-deps and so she gave me beta-blockers, propanalol to take 'as required', hmmm.
6 months or so ago, sarah and i went to the theatre, we had to leave as sarah was freaking. We didnt even get into the auditorium. This sunday we went again and what happened? I freaked....
We went to see a show, the comedy store, and i was nervous at first but then started laughing so hard it was great. Then 9 months after it first happened, it did it again...it felt like a sudden popping in my brain, like a million brain cells exploded and i thought i would pass out.
My next thought was the last thing i want in a comedy show is to collapse in front of everybody so run!!!after all its not funny and being the centre of attention is not fun in my book in this kind of situation. I didnt though, i sat tight and started sweating so much. I daren't laugh in case i pass out. it was really pants.
THis was sunday, its midnight now on tuesday night and i feel hideous. Have done since.
When i went to my GP a few months back she told me to see a counsellor. I am now, and she tells me i have panic attacks and anxiety. Sometimes I think i'm depressed too, but i describe it as being really frustrated, better terminology you see.
Anyway, after that, if you are still reading this sorry, i really want to know if anyone knows what i mean? My panic attack symptom was popping head, hmmm, and otherwise, my anxiety makes my eyes kill so bad. It's as if they cant focus properly, they struggle to focus at all when im nervous and it makes me so uneasy. Sometimes they water, they are blurry, and my eyes feel under pressure... ouch...
Its been happening a long time, i thought i was getting better but since the theatre i'm as bad as ever. I'm considering anti-depressants, so any advice on them and my symptoms would be really good. Does anyone know what i'm talking about?
Sorry bout the essay, hope i got the story across ok!
Please hel