MidnightCalm
13-06-15, 12:21
I'm agoraphobic and have massive anxiety and I'm currently having to look at places to move to that I can afford on my housing benefit and ESA as my current flat is extortionate and the landlord and letting agents are atrocious. I've been without a working oven or working heating for months!
I've found various cheaper places but the look of the area scares me to the point I imagine myself just staying up all night shaking with some kind of weapon close by or setting up fake camera systems and even getting a scary dog just to feel safe. I do feel quite stuck up when I say this stuff but streets where the floors are covered in weeds and there are cracks in the road and bits of rubbish on the floor and peoples bins still stood outside on the street 3 days after rubbish collection scare me. I feel like I'll just gt worse anxiety wise or just end up victim to some armed robbery or something. The back gardens all seem to lead on to alleys full of back gardens with broken washing machines in or a degrading mattress. I already neglect myself with my appearance, I do not want to turn into Frank Gallagher.
I've found various cheaper places but the look of the area scares me to the point I imagine myself just staying up all night shaking with some kind of weapon close by or setting up fake camera systems and even getting a scary dog just to feel safe. I do feel quite stuck up when I say this stuff but streets where the floors are covered in weeds and there are cracks in the road and bits of rubbish on the floor and peoples bins still stood outside on the street 3 days after rubbish collection scare me. I feel like I'll just gt worse anxiety wise or just end up victim to some armed robbery or something. The back gardens all seem to lead on to alleys full of back gardens with broken washing machines in or a degrading mattress. I already neglect myself with my appearance, I do not want to turn into Frank Gallagher.