BeckiG
29-01-07, 16:36
Hello Everyone,
I've been reading the posts on this site for some now and found them very helpful and reassuring, its good to know I'm not the only one and that other people have the same issues as me. I've finally plucked up the courage to add a posting.
I'm 32 and have been suffering from health anxiety for about 10 years now. I've had periods where I actually feel normal but the last year has been horrible I seem to have gone from one health panic to another. It started early last May when a relative passed away very suddenly and unexpectedly.
I know it sounds really selfish but as soon as it happened I immediately began thinking what if that happens to me. That was it !! since then I've convinced myself that I have a number of serious life threatening (obviously) illnesses, as soon as it's proved to me that it isn't what I think I immediately go to the next one and again become convinced that I have all the symptoms.
My latest worry is that I have some kind of brain tumour. I get headaches and sometimes they last for days and no medication seems to work the doctor says it stress / tension related (but obviously I know better!!).
Also about five months a go I have a really weird sensation while sat at home copying some CD's on the PC. I suddenly felt as though I had gone into some strange dream which I was part of I felt light-headed and unreal for a few seconds. It didn't last long and I was aware of what was happening but don't know what caused it. It was like when you’re just about to fall asleep and you start to have a dream then wake up and can't remember what you were thinking about! I know it sounds strange. I also had a couple of panic attacks that day, think this first episode brought them on. I haven't had it since then and at the time didn't worry about it as I was worrying about something else then. But in the last couple of weeks I've started to worry about what could have caused it. I did the stupid thing of looking at the symptoms on the internet (bad move) as now I'm convinced it's a brain tumour and the strange thing that happened that day was a temporal lobe seizure.
I've been to see my doctor (who is very understanding and never makes me feel like an idiot or like he thinks I'm making it up) he says it's all anxiety related and has put me on Citalopram. I try not to think bad thoughts but I just can't help it I'm in a constant state of panic just waiting for another panic attack or weird sensation to happen again at any minute. I cry myself to sleep most nights and just don't know what to do to make this go away, I feel like I will never feel normal again.
Sorry this has turned in to a bit of an essay, I promise they wont all be this long ;)
;)
I've been reading the posts on this site for some now and found them very helpful and reassuring, its good to know I'm not the only one and that other people have the same issues as me. I've finally plucked up the courage to add a posting.
I'm 32 and have been suffering from health anxiety for about 10 years now. I've had periods where I actually feel normal but the last year has been horrible I seem to have gone from one health panic to another. It started early last May when a relative passed away very suddenly and unexpectedly.
I know it sounds really selfish but as soon as it happened I immediately began thinking what if that happens to me. That was it !! since then I've convinced myself that I have a number of serious life threatening (obviously) illnesses, as soon as it's proved to me that it isn't what I think I immediately go to the next one and again become convinced that I have all the symptoms.
My latest worry is that I have some kind of brain tumour. I get headaches and sometimes they last for days and no medication seems to work the doctor says it stress / tension related (but obviously I know better!!).
Also about five months a go I have a really weird sensation while sat at home copying some CD's on the PC. I suddenly felt as though I had gone into some strange dream which I was part of I felt light-headed and unreal for a few seconds. It didn't last long and I was aware of what was happening but don't know what caused it. It was like when you’re just about to fall asleep and you start to have a dream then wake up and can't remember what you were thinking about! I know it sounds strange. I also had a couple of panic attacks that day, think this first episode brought them on. I haven't had it since then and at the time didn't worry about it as I was worrying about something else then. But in the last couple of weeks I've started to worry about what could have caused it. I did the stupid thing of looking at the symptoms on the internet (bad move) as now I'm convinced it's a brain tumour and the strange thing that happened that day was a temporal lobe seizure.
I've been to see my doctor (who is very understanding and never makes me feel like an idiot or like he thinks I'm making it up) he says it's all anxiety related and has put me on Citalopram. I try not to think bad thoughts but I just can't help it I'm in a constant state of panic just waiting for another panic attack or weird sensation to happen again at any minute. I cry myself to sleep most nights and just don't know what to do to make this go away, I feel like I will never feel normal again.
Sorry this has turned in to a bit of an essay, I promise they wont all be this long ;)
;)