Jilly-Boe
18-06-15, 13:19
So i guess i should start with a bit about me. My name is Billy, i'm 23 and i am living with severe depression and anxiety.
I have struggled with these issues for as long as i can remember, having my first major anxiety attack when i was 12. 5 years ago i tried to take my own life. I didn't feel worth any ones times or effort and like i was a burden. Alot has happened in the 5 years since. I felt better for a long time. I felt like myself, but in the last 6 months everything seems to have gone wrong. I got out of a 5 and a half year relationship in which i was to become an adoptive parent, i had to move out of my home, i started a new job and 4 weeks ago my best friend passed who was a huge coping tool 5 years ago. I recognized that i was having thoughts and feelings that were all too familiar. So i spoke to someone and am now just starting Citalopram again. I'm currently 3 days in and trying to live a life with the facade of normality even though im being eaten up by the darkness of my anxiety and depression. A friendly voice amongst the chatter would be nice.
I have struggled with these issues for as long as i can remember, having my first major anxiety attack when i was 12. 5 years ago i tried to take my own life. I didn't feel worth any ones times or effort and like i was a burden. Alot has happened in the 5 years since. I felt better for a long time. I felt like myself, but in the last 6 months everything seems to have gone wrong. I got out of a 5 and a half year relationship in which i was to become an adoptive parent, i had to move out of my home, i started a new job and 4 weeks ago my best friend passed who was a huge coping tool 5 years ago. I recognized that i was having thoughts and feelings that were all too familiar. So i spoke to someone and am now just starting Citalopram again. I'm currently 3 days in and trying to live a life with the facade of normality even though im being eaten up by the darkness of my anxiety and depression. A friendly voice amongst the chatter would be nice.