ricardo
19-06-15, 11:12
Over the thirty odd years of GAD, OCD and agrophobia I have seen many therapists and as is the norm they initially ask you about your background and try and find what triggered ones anxiety off.
I am being completely honest in that I really don't know for certain.
I was born a few years after the war and when I was 37 found various papers that showed that my birth mother was 17 when I was born and my father was a local married man.
My mother left her home town when her pregnancy became noticeable and went to live in London (otherwise her father would have disowned her).She gave birth to me and literally within a few hours just abandoned me and I was fostered out and then at 6 weeks old adopted by two people who will always be my parents.
My adopted mother had already lost two children both born stillborn during the war years and in fact couldn't have any more children.
Rightly or wrongly I didn't find out I was adopted until I was about 15 and I must point out that I never intended to go and look for my birth mother but something very personal came up in my life and unfortunately though both my adopted parents had died within three years of each other a number of years earlier , I managed to trace my natural mother quite easily and met her.
She never had any other children, was married, but was an alcoholic and on various medication .She could see that my wife and I were shall we say quite comfortable and asked me if I could give her some money. That just left me cold. She didn't tell me who my real father was, but through a bit of investigation I found out who he was as there was a huge connection with him and the rest of my natural mother's family to being bookmakers. Out of curiousity I met him at a racetrack, but got no reaction.
All this told me how lucky I was to be loved by my adopted parents though perhaps being an only child, a little too protected.
I watch long Lost family with nNcky Campbell who was also adopted and Devina McCall and am genuimnely pleased for those who find missing relatives.
Many pyschiatrists think my anxiety started at birth because of the circumstances and manifested itself in my early thirties because up till then I had never had any anxiety symptoms whatsoever, but I think that losing my parents in a comparitively short time and then given years not weeks of librium and mogadon instead of letting me grieve was the start of all my anxiety issues.That was in the early eighties and of course years later it was found out that all these group of drugs taken long or even short term were harmful.I hope they don't say the same about SSRI's in ten years or so.
Are there any other adopted people on NMP who may have anxity issues or do you think I am clutching at straws.
I am being completely honest in that I really don't know for certain.
I was born a few years after the war and when I was 37 found various papers that showed that my birth mother was 17 when I was born and my father was a local married man.
My mother left her home town when her pregnancy became noticeable and went to live in London (otherwise her father would have disowned her).She gave birth to me and literally within a few hours just abandoned me and I was fostered out and then at 6 weeks old adopted by two people who will always be my parents.
My adopted mother had already lost two children both born stillborn during the war years and in fact couldn't have any more children.
Rightly or wrongly I didn't find out I was adopted until I was about 15 and I must point out that I never intended to go and look for my birth mother but something very personal came up in my life and unfortunately though both my adopted parents had died within three years of each other a number of years earlier , I managed to trace my natural mother quite easily and met her.
She never had any other children, was married, but was an alcoholic and on various medication .She could see that my wife and I were shall we say quite comfortable and asked me if I could give her some money. That just left me cold. She didn't tell me who my real father was, but through a bit of investigation I found out who he was as there was a huge connection with him and the rest of my natural mother's family to being bookmakers. Out of curiousity I met him at a racetrack, but got no reaction.
All this told me how lucky I was to be loved by my adopted parents though perhaps being an only child, a little too protected.
I watch long Lost family with nNcky Campbell who was also adopted and Devina McCall and am genuimnely pleased for those who find missing relatives.
Many pyschiatrists think my anxiety started at birth because of the circumstances and manifested itself in my early thirties because up till then I had never had any anxiety symptoms whatsoever, but I think that losing my parents in a comparitively short time and then given years not weeks of librium and mogadon instead of letting me grieve was the start of all my anxiety issues.That was in the early eighties and of course years later it was found out that all these group of drugs taken long or even short term were harmful.I hope they don't say the same about SSRI's in ten years or so.
Are there any other adopted people on NMP who may have anxity issues or do you think I am clutching at straws.